Mood whiplash
Nothing quite like spending a screwdriver-wielding day up to my elbows in printer guts and diagnostics to give a sense of accomplishment. There's something wonderfully clarifying about being able to simply junk a whole pile of oversized IT hardware in order to help clear the decks, mentally, metaphorically, and literally.
On the other hand, there's a part of me which is having a small angry breakdown in a corner about certain life paths which have just become a whole lot more difficult. Not for reasons anyone reading this might think, but partially because of some stuff I found out and partially because of secondary and tertiary effects of said stuff. Surprisingly, knowing myself to be pretty fairly self-centred in many things, it's not the effects on me personally which are the issue. Me-stuff I can deal with. I'm just really not fond of being told "Stand still FOREVER on this pressure trigger wired to the bomb in the box of puppies."
On the other hand, there's a part of me which is having a small angry breakdown in a corner about certain life paths which have just become a whole lot more difficult. Not for reasons anyone reading this might think, but partially because of some stuff I found out and partially because of secondary and tertiary effects of said stuff. Surprisingly, knowing myself to be pretty fairly self-centred in many things, it's not the effects on me personally which are the issue. Me-stuff I can deal with. I'm just really not fond of being told "Stand still FOREVER on this pressure trigger wired to the bomb in the box of puppies."