I just wanted to say....
Ten things I wish I could say to ten unspecified people.
Stoled from Evnnnnn.
1. You haunt my dreams to this day. I want you in a feral way that frightens me. It's so wrong, you have a family and we're worlds apart, but I saw the way you looked at me and my heart skipped. You have this power over me just by looking in my eyes; what in the name of God would happen if we ever touched? ...You make me want to throw my morals to the winds.
2. Watching you blossom has been a joy. You worry me and sometimes scare me, but it's only because I love you to pieces. It's unbelievable how close we are. I feel fiercely protective of you, and would lay down my life for you in a heartbeat. I can't wait to see what you're going to become in this world, and I'll be here for you every step of the way.
3. You are the best; absolutely the sweetest person and I adore you. Why I'm not in love with you is anyone guess, and believe me, I'm kicking myself for it...but you will always hold a place in my heart that no one else can ever fill. (Cheez cheez cheez)
4. You're so far away, and it's been so long, yet I can still feel you in my arms. I wonder if it's true what you said. I'm not holding my breath, but there will always be a part of me that holds out hope. I miss you, and I love you, and I wish to God you were here with me.
5. NO MEANS NO, you creepy, twisted, sick sick bastard. You hate me but you want me; that's all well and good, but stop telling me about it. You're really skeeving me out. I will not be intimidated by you; do your worst. And chill the fuck out.
6. I hope we both taught each other something that night, for better or for worse. On MY end, it's most certainly for better...so, thank you. I'll miss you and your wonderful, wonderful accent.
7. I miss you so so so much and you may never know exactly how much you mean to me. I wish to God I could see you so I could tell you, hold you, make up for hurting you by making you laugh a thousand times. I really hope you're doing okay.
8. Jesus Christ, you're a beautiful boy. What we had was so long ago already, and it's mostly a blur, but I remember that I loved you well and made (at the time) the ultimate sacrifice for your sake. I'm glad that, now, you can look back and recognize that it was done in love. I will never never forget you, or those nights together, or the way your arms felt around me.
9. You're not who I thought you were; I blame myself for moving too fast before I could see what you really are. You used me, and I will never forgive you. You WILL pay for what you did; perhaps not by my hand, but you will get what's coming to you one way or another. I hope it gives you the wisdom to never, ever do this to another girl, because next time, someone might kill you for it.
10. Be proud of me; I'm not so saintly that I haven't derived some savage pleasure watching you dig your own grave. I always knew that your poisonous, hateful cattiness would sink you, and, though it shames me to say it: it serves you right. Grow the fuck up.
I was up till the wee hours with my 36 year-old ex-boyfriend and a crate of raspberry Smirnoff.
It was a goooooooood night.
♥!!!
Stoled from Evnnnnn.
1. You haunt my dreams to this day. I want you in a feral way that frightens me. It's so wrong, you have a family and we're worlds apart, but I saw the way you looked at me and my heart skipped. You have this power over me just by looking in my eyes; what in the name of God would happen if we ever touched? ...You make me want to throw my morals to the winds.
2. Watching you blossom has been a joy. You worry me and sometimes scare me, but it's only because I love you to pieces. It's unbelievable how close we are. I feel fiercely protective of you, and would lay down my life for you in a heartbeat. I can't wait to see what you're going to become in this world, and I'll be here for you every step of the way.
3. You are the best; absolutely the sweetest person and I adore you. Why I'm not in love with you is anyone guess, and believe me, I'm kicking myself for it...but you will always hold a place in my heart that no one else can ever fill. (Cheez cheez cheez)
4. You're so far away, and it's been so long, yet I can still feel you in my arms. I wonder if it's true what you said. I'm not holding my breath, but there will always be a part of me that holds out hope. I miss you, and I love you, and I wish to God you were here with me.
5. NO MEANS NO, you creepy, twisted, sick sick bastard. You hate me but you want me; that's all well and good, but stop telling me about it. You're really skeeving me out. I will not be intimidated by you; do your worst. And chill the fuck out.
6. I hope we both taught each other something that night, for better or for worse. On MY end, it's most certainly for better...so, thank you. I'll miss you and your wonderful, wonderful accent.
7. I miss you so so so much and you may never know exactly how much you mean to me. I wish to God I could see you so I could tell you, hold you, make up for hurting you by making you laugh a thousand times. I really hope you're doing okay.
8. Jesus Christ, you're a beautiful boy. What we had was so long ago already, and it's mostly a blur, but I remember that I loved you well and made (at the time) the ultimate sacrifice for your sake. I'm glad that, now, you can look back and recognize that it was done in love. I will never never forget you, or those nights together, or the way your arms felt around me.
9. You're not who I thought you were; I blame myself for moving too fast before I could see what you really are. You used me, and I will never forgive you. You WILL pay for what you did; perhaps not by my hand, but you will get what's coming to you one way or another. I hope it gives you the wisdom to never, ever do this to another girl, because next time, someone might kill you for it.
10. Be proud of me; I'm not so saintly that I haven't derived some savage pleasure watching you dig your own grave. I always knew that your poisonous, hateful cattiness would sink you, and, though it shames me to say it: it serves you right. Grow the fuck up.
I was up till the wee hours with my 36 year-old ex-boyfriend and a crate of raspberry Smirnoff.
It was a goooooooood night.
♥!!!