Constrained Desire
I'm pretty sure that everyone who cares can find it on the coms. So, instead of posting it here, I'm going to ramble about it this time.
For quite some time now, I've been at the point where I felt I just had to stop and re-evaluate things. While I'm still happy with the original plot ideas, I don't feel that my writing is expressing those ideas the way it should.
Awhile back a friend of mine mentioned a certain fic in which the exposition was terribly overdone, and I couldn't help but wonder if I don't make the same mistake sometimes. I have a tendency to over-analyze everything, and I'm sure it couldn't hurt to tone it down a little.
I've also realized that I'm entirely unhappy with the way I've written Hakkai throughout most of this series. He's just so pathetic. It's horrible. And although it is true that his personality actually was pretty pathetic during most of the Chin Yisou arc, I can't help but feel as though I've made it worse. I want to change that. Because Hakkai deserves better, regardless of my whole love/hate relationship with his character.
I can't say that my latest chapter has accomplished that at all. But, I did take a lot of time out to arrange it so that it made sense and try to cut back on some of the exposition. From now on, I want to put a lot more effort into the series, to make it something that's really worth reading and not just something mediocre. It'll probably take a lot of time, and a complete overhaul of certain things, but I think that any effort I put in will be worth it.
I'd also like to ask anyone on my f-list, or even anyone who's read my fics at all, to give me any feedback that they have. Everyone always has an opinion about what they read. I want to hear them, regardless of whether I'd find them favorable or not. The only way to improve is to realize your faults and work on them.
I'm just so lost in my own little world sometimes, I really need the constructive criticism to figure out what I'm doing wrong... or even just what I could do better.
For quite some time now, I've been at the point where I felt I just had to stop and re-evaluate things. While I'm still happy with the original plot ideas, I don't feel that my writing is expressing those ideas the way it should.
Awhile back a friend of mine mentioned a certain fic in which the exposition was terribly overdone, and I couldn't help but wonder if I don't make the same mistake sometimes. I have a tendency to over-analyze everything, and I'm sure it couldn't hurt to tone it down a little.
I've also realized that I'm entirely unhappy with the way I've written Hakkai throughout most of this series. He's just so pathetic. It's horrible. And although it is true that his personality actually was pretty pathetic during most of the Chin Yisou arc, I can't help but feel as though I've made it worse. I want to change that. Because Hakkai deserves better, regardless of my whole love/hate relationship with his character.
I can't say that my latest chapter has accomplished that at all. But, I did take a lot of time out to arrange it so that it made sense and try to cut back on some of the exposition. From now on, I want to put a lot more effort into the series, to make it something that's really worth reading and not just something mediocre. It'll probably take a lot of time, and a complete overhaul of certain things, but I think that any effort I put in will be worth it.
I'd also like to ask anyone on my f-list, or even anyone who's read my fics at all, to give me any feedback that they have. Everyone always has an opinion about what they read. I want to hear them, regardless of whether I'd find them favorable or not. The only way to improve is to realize your faults and work on them.
I'm just so lost in my own little world sometimes, I really need the constructive criticism to figure out what I'm doing wrong... or even just what I could do better.