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i think i have a fan club... and i don't understand that. Apparently some guy from italy called his friend to ask if i was single... man what's up with all these guys and thier liking me ;). anyway i think i'm ok. no more depression/neroticness (well no more depression at least). and i finaly got a full nights sleep. I've been going off 3-4 hours every night for the past like week and a half. the last couple of nights i've been in that delirous crazy state where nothing actually seems real. I forgot how wonderful exhastion really is. nice to have some sleep though. ahh It's so nice to be in love with the world again. The trees are amazing. I hope to go leaf collecting before it's too late, which will be fairly soon i'm afraid. And once again i get a freaking awsome english assignment. We have to "direct" a scene from either the Glass Menagerie or M. Butterfly and tell how it helps show the theme. I miss drama so much. I remeber how magical it was that day i finally understood light. For one little instinat it all made perfect sence and it was amazing. I wish i was in drama here. lol actually i wish i was freaking awsome and at Cal State, but don't we all.
so something about this place that we all know that really bothers me. That whole souther manality shit. You know everyone has to do this and that to be polite, but they really don't mean it. It's not really obvious and I prolly wouldn't have brought it up if it weren't for the fact that at dinner last night Brook broke those rules... I miss that feeling of comfort where you know it's ok to do whatever cause no one really does care. You know steeling peoples food and shit like that. haha Brook reminded me of much i miss that... He's such a freaking awsome person, a very comfortable person. Comfortable with himself, and therefore with the rest of the world as well. Haha he's such a kid at heart too... he reminds me of home... man i miss home.
Anyway i should be off. Did you guys know it's november already? you know what that means? It means I should be getting at least 4 books in the mail if not 6, cause your not getting anything till i've gotten something...
lots of love to everyone.
el
so something about this place that we all know that really bothers me. That whole souther manality shit. You know everyone has to do this and that to be polite, but they really don't mean it. It's not really obvious and I prolly wouldn't have brought it up if it weren't for the fact that at dinner last night Brook broke those rules... I miss that feeling of comfort where you know it's ok to do whatever cause no one really does care. You know steeling peoples food and shit like that. haha Brook reminded me of much i miss that... He's such a freaking awsome person, a very comfortable person. Comfortable with himself, and therefore with the rest of the world as well. Haha he's such a kid at heart too... he reminds me of home... man i miss home.
Anyway i should be off. Did you guys know it's november already? you know what that means? It means I should be getting at least 4 books in the mail if not 6, cause your not getting anything till i've gotten something...
lots of love to everyone.
el