i hate cloudy contacts.
so today was hard. i kept tearing up at random moments of the day. it hurts so much, not that i want him back so badly... well kind of. my heart wants him back, to feel his touch, to hear his laughter. but my brain keeps telling me that its not worth the heartache. it hurts more to think that my year and three months excusion with this boy, i called love, is over. over like that. all these ups and downs of our relationship are now turned into memories. memories that will make me upset when i think about them, because now its just making me even more sad that we cant share and make new memories together.