are you a good witch or a bad witch?
so, how is marina holding up?
I have good days and I have bad days.
today has been a bad day. waking up from bad dreams, head/sinus pain, and gallons of tears = not a good way to start a day.
I shuffle through my emotions recklessly, and quite often purge my frustration in waves of tears. I can't seem to shake feelings of regret, anger, and guilt.
This whole process is hard. It's almost harder being so far away. D and I are trying to figure out when the best time for me to head out there is. Definately thanksgiving week, probably the week before as well.
Tonight I'm going to try and drown my sorrows in the joy of my lovely boy, some pumpkins, sharp carving tools, grilled cheese sandies, creamy tomato soup, and baking cupcakes.
I know I'll enjoy myself. These are all things that I enjoy in my life. But, I can't help the thoughts in the back of my head that tell me that it's useless to try and waste my time on trivial tasks.....papi is still dying. Nothing I can do will change that.
so, marina brain, then tell me - what am i supposed to do? i can't just sit here. but, i'm not quite functional at doing much else today.
i know this will all pass in time.....but i can't help feeling this way, and don't know what to do with myself.
I have good days and I have bad days.
today has been a bad day. waking up from bad dreams, head/sinus pain, and gallons of tears = not a good way to start a day.
I shuffle through my emotions recklessly, and quite often purge my frustration in waves of tears. I can't seem to shake feelings of regret, anger, and guilt.
This whole process is hard. It's almost harder being so far away. D and I are trying to figure out when the best time for me to head out there is. Definately thanksgiving week, probably the week before as well.
Tonight I'm going to try and drown my sorrows in the joy of my lovely boy, some pumpkins, sharp carving tools, grilled cheese sandies, creamy tomato soup, and baking cupcakes.
I know I'll enjoy myself. These are all things that I enjoy in my life. But, I can't help the thoughts in the back of my head that tell me that it's useless to try and waste my time on trivial tasks.....papi is still dying. Nothing I can do will change that.
so, marina brain, then tell me - what am i supposed to do? i can't just sit here. but, i'm not quite functional at doing much else today.
i know this will all pass in time.....but i can't help feeling this way, and don't know what to do with myself.