don't jinx it
my interview yesterday went.........well I could go on for days about it, but I don't want to jinx it.
this morning I met with my graduate advisor. he was really helpful in guiding me to figure out what classes i should take and how i should arrange my program. overall, i'm really excited. While working on my B.A. at san francisco state I carried 15-18 units a semester, 2-4 part time jobs(depending on the semester and the job), and all my volunteer job requirements. I was totally overloaded, and I always wonder how I got through it.
oh yeah, there was all that drinking....that might have had something to do with the coping....
i've decided that I don't want my graduate program to fly by before i even know i'm in it. i don't just want a piece of paper. i'm in a program that involves all classes that I WANT TO take, and no dumb general education requirements.
i want to take my time, get good grades, and remember what i've learned. a novel concept, no?
so, apparently i will be considered full time if i take 3 classes. but, i can take my first 2 basic classes on monday evenings (one is from 4-6:30, the other from 7-9:30) and then i'm only there one night a week, and can actually have some kind of a life and maybe have some time to work on this new job (if it comes to fruition.....again, NO JINXING!).
the other class my advisor told me to consider is one of two options: one on wednesday evenings 7-9:30, the other is on saturdays from 2p-4:30p. the one on saturday is in my emphasis...but seriously - SATURDAY? at TWO O'CLOCK? who does that?!
my excitement, however, is in the little things....buying myself a new laptop, designing my office/craft room in our new place, oh....and then there's the potential new vehicle we might acquire from "the deserters" (don't worry H & S, i'm really just jealous as all hell).
all in all, things are rolling along. i'm definately emo about all this. there's a lot of self doubt involved in all ths change. i really don't know that i can do it. but....fuck if i won't try then i wouldn't be the person i've known myself to be!
it is awefully tiring to carry all this emotion and anxiety though. falling asleep takes forever. brain not good at the shutting up and leaving me alone for a few hours of rest. you'd think that after a few days of this that i'd just hit a level of exhaustion and pass out...but no. my head hits the pillow, my eyes close, and all of a sudden i am all alone with my thoughts.
how do i send my thoughts on a vacation so i can get some gorram sleep??
this morning I met with my graduate advisor. he was really helpful in guiding me to figure out what classes i should take and how i should arrange my program. overall, i'm really excited. While working on my B.A. at san francisco state I carried 15-18 units a semester, 2-4 part time jobs(depending on the semester and the job), and all my volunteer job requirements. I was totally overloaded, and I always wonder how I got through it.
oh yeah, there was all that drinking....that might have had something to do with the coping....
i've decided that I don't want my graduate program to fly by before i even know i'm in it. i don't just want a piece of paper. i'm in a program that involves all classes that I WANT TO take, and no dumb general education requirements.
i want to take my time, get good grades, and remember what i've learned. a novel concept, no?
so, apparently i will be considered full time if i take 3 classes. but, i can take my first 2 basic classes on monday evenings (one is from 4-6:30, the other from 7-9:30) and then i'm only there one night a week, and can actually have some kind of a life and maybe have some time to work on this new job (if it comes to fruition.....again, NO JINXING!).
the other class my advisor told me to consider is one of two options: one on wednesday evenings 7-9:30, the other is on saturdays from 2p-4:30p. the one on saturday is in my emphasis...but seriously - SATURDAY? at TWO O'CLOCK? who does that?!
my excitement, however, is in the little things....buying myself a new laptop, designing my office/craft room in our new place, oh....and then there's the potential new vehicle we might acquire from "the deserters" (don't worry H & S, i'm really just jealous as all hell).
all in all, things are rolling along. i'm definately emo about all this. there's a lot of self doubt involved in all ths change. i really don't know that i can do it. but....fuck if i won't try then i wouldn't be the person i've known myself to be!
it is awefully tiring to carry all this emotion and anxiety though. falling asleep takes forever. brain not good at the shutting up and leaving me alone for a few hours of rest. you'd think that after a few days of this that i'd just hit a level of exhaustion and pass out...but no. my head hits the pillow, my eyes close, and all of a sudden i am all alone with my thoughts.
how do i send my thoughts on a vacation so i can get some gorram sleep??