Nothing In This World.... (3/?)
Title: Nothing In This World
Author: the_resolver
Fandom: Got7
Chapter: 3/?
Pairing: Mark/Jackson, Jinyoung/Jaebum, Mark/Youngjae
Rating: R (probably the highest rating for the fic)
Warning: I curse a bit
Summary: One summer, one kiss, one breath it took to make Mark realise how he felt his best friend and then to slowly have to watch his best friend push him away a bit. Starting university is hard enough but to feel like you've made the biggest mistake of your life is something else...
A/N:
Jaebum looked over at Jinyoung, they were lying next to each other in Jinyoung’s bed. Jaebum moved a little to rest his head on Jinyoung’s chest. Jinyoung rolled his eyes but wrapped an arm around his best friend. “Do you think Jacks and Mark are going to sort it out?” Jinyoung said quietly, his hand softly rubbing Jaebum’s back as Jaebum kept himself close. Jinyoung inevitably knew the way that Jaebum was going to answer the question but he still felt like he needed to ask. Jaebum sighed and his fingers traced shapes on Jinyoung’s stomach. “Jae.”
“No” Jaebum said quietly. “Because Jacks is stubborn”, Jinyoung sighed a little, he wished his best friend was more optimistic about things like this. Jinyoung smiled when he felt Jaebum start tracing words on his stomach, nothing important but it was almost relaxing. “And I told Mark he shouldn’t waste his time waiting.” Jinyoung tensed, and Jaebum looked up. “What? Was I supposed to say wait forever maybe your ‘straight’ best friend will magically embrace his clear desire to eat your face?” Jaebum almost growled. Jinyoung rolled his eyes.
“Can’t you just root for them?”
“Jacks could be straight Jin,”
“But he made out with Mark.”
“We’ve had sex”
“Different”
“You can’t be the only exception Jin” Jaebum said, lying his head back on Jinyoung’s chest, and closing his eyes. “I can’t argue with your stupid.” Jaebum mumbled, move as close as he could to the other and keeping his eyes closed, trying to go to sleep. Jinyoung smiled a little to himself, still rubbing Jaebum’s back softly.
“Yeah I love you too Jae.” He said, making sure the older boy was asleep on him, moving the boy carefully, so Jaebum wouldn’t wake up with cramp in his neck, before settling down to go to sleep himself. Jaebum never really moved in his sleep and Jinyoung really liked that, he liked how comforting it was having Jaebum’s head resting on his chest. Jinyoung kept his arms around his best friend, knowing how Jaebum liked to be held. Jinyoung didn’t even remember when they started doing things like this. He knew to other people this was blurring lines, but to Jinyoung it was just, him and Jaebum, there wasn’t anything complex about them. They were close, they liked to sleep in the same bed. Best friends.
*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*
When Mark woke up Jackson was already dressed. “What are you doing Jacks, classes don’t start til next week?” Mark said sitting him and running his hand through his hair. He reached for his phone and smiled at a message from Youngjae but then looked back at his best friend. “Jacks, you never get up before 12 on a day you don’t have class.” Mark said trying to wake himself up.
“Need to see Jaebum.”
“Don’t go this early.” Mark mumbled.
“Why?”
“Jinyoung.” Mark said shuffling. “They sleep in the same bed.”
“Because I was there.”
“No, Jacks.” Mark said he was awake now. “They sleep in the same bed, all the time. Jaebum is always curled up against Jinyoung and Jinyoung is always holding him protectively.”
“How do you…” Jackson said looking at Mark.
“I saw it, a few times, and then Jaebum told me everything.” Mark said, remembering how Jaebum had been embarrassed about the whole situation.
“And you never told me?”
“Jacks, in what way was this information important to your life?”
“Now I am definitely going to their room.” Jackson said smiling cheekily, and darting out the door. He smiled as he tried the door to his friends room which just so happened to be unlocked. He smiled when he found the scene exactly the way Mark had said it would be. He crept up and crawled onto the bed so he was lying on both of them. When they started to move, feeling his weight, Jackson couldn’t help but laugh. “So warm and cuddly.” For that he received a punch from Jaebum.
“Why are you here?” Jinyoung asked after they’d all moved to sit up. Jackson just smiled.
“How can you and Jae be so close after you’ve kissed and stuff.”
“Because I fucked him,” Jinyoung said almost proudly, Jaebum cleared his throat. “And after we’d both peaked he-“
“That’s enough Jinyoung.” Jaebum said sternly. “Basically what he’s saying is, he wanted to fuck me, I let him fuck me and we agreed never to do it again.”
“My dick was too big” Jinyoung said with a stupidly cheesy grin on his face.
“You wish it was too big.” Jaebum said rolling his eyes. “You have a pencil dick and that’s why no girl gets on it more than one disappointing time.”
“Have you ever seen Mark’s dick?” Jinyoung asked, before getting punched in the arm by Jaebum.
“What? No, I haven’t.” Jackson said quickly, before looking at Jaebum, “is he getting more stupid?” Jaebum just shrugged and Jinyoung glared at them both. “Can we try having a serious conversation about this, I want things to back to the way they were before.”
“Is that because you were balls deep in his ass.” Jaebum bitched. Jackson moved a little as if to hit Jaebum, and Jinyoung moved, to protect his best friend, then wrapped his arm around Jaebum and gave his arm a squeeze.
“I’m not Jinyoung, I don’t put my dick in my best friend who sleeps with men.” Jackson growled.
“Hey.” Jinyoung said quickly. “I hate how you and Mark always act like us having sex was easy for us. We talked about it and it wasn’t an easy choice.” Jaebum leant a little against Jinyoung. “We’ve fought more since it. It’s harder to watch my best friend pick up girls and guys, because I know how he is. I know what they are getting and I want to protect Jae from people who aren’t like me.”
“And you two aren’t together?”
“No.” Jinyoung said, “I was experimenting.” Jaebum had his eyes closed and Jackson just watched the pair. “He’s not good in the morning Jackson.” Jinyoung sighed and looked at Jackson. “I’ll walk you back, moving and letting Jaebum, lie back down and snuggle into the bed. Jinyoung and Jackson started walking back to Jackson and Mark’s room. “Jackson, you’re lucky, Mark told you how he felt. He might not have said it, but he showed you. You know deep down how he feels. You might not admit it but you know. Jaebum never told me how he felt after we slept together. He went silent,” Jinyoung bit his lip. “He didn’t speak, for half an hour.” Jackson looked at Jinyoung. “He was awake, he just, didn’t say anything.”
“That’s not normal.”
“I fucking know that Jackson.” Jinyoung said, “he acts like he did before. We’re closer to each other, We don’t have any shyness around each other. But I have no idea how he felt. He doesn’t tell me. He just answers back and cuddles me.”
“Do you think-?”
“No, He would tell me if he wanted to do it again.”
“That wasn’t what I meant.” Jackson said quietly.
“Focus on Mark and you.” Jinyoung said quietly. “You don’t want to suddenly realise that you have more and Mark be settling with Youngjae.” Jinyoung sighed, “Jaebum is encouraging Mark to be with Youngjae, so don’t take too long ok?”
Jackson nodded and walked into his and Mark’s room, to see the familiar form of Youngjae sitting on Mark’s bed. Jackson heard the shower running, and assumed Mark was in the shower. Jackson looked over at Youngjae. “Why are you here?” Jackson asked lowly, so Mark couldn’t hear in the shower.
“I’m taking him out to catch a film.” Youngjae smiled a little, “He’s just getting ready, he asked me to come over, he said you’d decided to spend the day with your other friends.” Jackson looked over when Mark came out, his towel wrapped around his waist. He looked at Jackson and then at Youngjae.
“I thought you were going to see Jae.” Mark said. Jackson just looked at him, Mark shifted a bit and then started getting dressed. Once dressed he kissed Youngjae quickly. “I promise I’m nearly done.” He smiled, going in for another kiss. Youngjae’s hand running down Mark’s side and resting on his ass. Jackson cleared his throat, and Mark moved away and started doing his hair.
“Mark.” Jackson said quietly, before standing up and moving over to his best friend and standing as close as he could to the boy. Mark looked at him. “Don’t go with him.” He said quietly. Mark just looked at Jackson. “I can get rid of him.” Jackson hissed. Mark looked at Jackson as if to challenge him. Jackson leaned closer, and just before they could kiss Mark moved back and he looked at Youngjae.
“So am I your second boy?” Youngjae said standing up. Mark punched Jackson in the arm, Jackson ignored him and tried to put his arms around him. “I’ll just go.” Youngjae said pushing past them and leaving. Mark glared at Jackson and pushed him away from him.
“What the fuck Jackson.” Mark growled. “Have you ever thought that I might want a fucking boyfriend. He’s sexy, he’s nice, he genuinely cares about me.”
“Fuck off Mark you barely know him.” Jackson answered back. “I don’t like him. I don’t like him for you.”
“I hate you Jackson.” Mark said “You don’t want me, but you want me to be so fucking unhappy.” Mark felt like he was going to cry. “I really wanted to have a date with him today.” Mark looked at Jackson. “Just because you’re fucking single doesn’t mean you can fuck up a nice date I was going to have.”
“You could have followed him out.” Jackson said quietly, going and lying back down on his bed. “I’ll take you to the cinema after lunch.” Jackson said looking over at Mark, who was just leaning against the wall. Mark let himself drop to the ground, his knees up to his chest. Jackson moved a little and looked at Mark. “Mark, talk to me.”
“I’d rather not. I am so pissed with you.”
“I didn’t stop you following him.” Jackson said quickly.
“Don’t make me get up and punch you in that stupid face of yours.” Mark closed his eyes and leant against the wall. “I don’t even know why I like you right now.” Mark sighed and stood up, he turned back to the mirror and finished getting ready. “I can’t stay here right now, just looking at you is pissing me off.”
“Mark” Jackson said quietly.
“Don’t Jackson, I will punch you.” Mark took a deep breath. “You are so fucked up. Why do you do this to me? Why are you the way you are? What have I ever done to you, for you to want me to be so unhappy?” Mark was on the verge of shouting. “What did I ever do to you to deserve this. Is this because I kissed you? Because I got a little turned on? I’m sorry Jackson Ok, I’m really fucking sorry. I wish I’d never leaned in for that kiss. I wish I’d never gotten drunk, I wish I’d had more control. I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve you fucking my love life because you’re pissed I kissed you.” Jackson just looked at Mark. “I’m sorry I’m gay, and I’m sorry I kissed you when you’re not.”
“Mark” Jackson said softly.
“I just wanted to be with someone who would treat me nicely. I wasn’t going to marry him Jackson. You say you’ll protect me but you’re the one hurting me.” Mark said quietly.
“You think he just wanted the cinema and maybe a kiss? He wanted to go to town on your body.”
“Maybe I want him to fuck me.” Mark lashed back, but then he sighed. “It’s nothing to do with you.” Mark sighed
Author: the_resolver
Fandom: Got7
Chapter: 3/?
Pairing: Mark/Jackson, Jinyoung/Jaebum, Mark/Youngjae
Rating: R (probably the highest rating for the fic)
Warning: I curse a bit
Summary: One summer, one kiss, one breath it took to make Mark realise how he felt his best friend and then to slowly have to watch his best friend push him away a bit. Starting university is hard enough but to feel like you've made the biggest mistake of your life is something else...
A/N:
Jaebum looked over at Jinyoung, they were lying next to each other in Jinyoung’s bed. Jaebum moved a little to rest his head on Jinyoung’s chest. Jinyoung rolled his eyes but wrapped an arm around his best friend. “Do you think Jacks and Mark are going to sort it out?” Jinyoung said quietly, his hand softly rubbing Jaebum’s back as Jaebum kept himself close. Jinyoung inevitably knew the way that Jaebum was going to answer the question but he still felt like he needed to ask. Jaebum sighed and his fingers traced shapes on Jinyoung’s stomach. “Jae.”
“No” Jaebum said quietly. “Because Jacks is stubborn”, Jinyoung sighed a little, he wished his best friend was more optimistic about things like this. Jinyoung smiled when he felt Jaebum start tracing words on his stomach, nothing important but it was almost relaxing. “And I told Mark he shouldn’t waste his time waiting.” Jinyoung tensed, and Jaebum looked up. “What? Was I supposed to say wait forever maybe your ‘straight’ best friend will magically embrace his clear desire to eat your face?” Jaebum almost growled. Jinyoung rolled his eyes.
“Can’t you just root for them?”
“Jacks could be straight Jin,”
“But he made out with Mark.”
“We’ve had sex”
“Different”
“You can’t be the only exception Jin” Jaebum said, lying his head back on Jinyoung’s chest, and closing his eyes. “I can’t argue with your stupid.” Jaebum mumbled, move as close as he could to the other and keeping his eyes closed, trying to go to sleep. Jinyoung smiled a little to himself, still rubbing Jaebum’s back softly.
“Yeah I love you too Jae.” He said, making sure the older boy was asleep on him, moving the boy carefully, so Jaebum wouldn’t wake up with cramp in his neck, before settling down to go to sleep himself. Jaebum never really moved in his sleep and Jinyoung really liked that, he liked how comforting it was having Jaebum’s head resting on his chest. Jinyoung kept his arms around his best friend, knowing how Jaebum liked to be held. Jinyoung didn’t even remember when they started doing things like this. He knew to other people this was blurring lines, but to Jinyoung it was just, him and Jaebum, there wasn’t anything complex about them. They were close, they liked to sleep in the same bed. Best friends.
*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*_*
When Mark woke up Jackson was already dressed. “What are you doing Jacks, classes don’t start til next week?” Mark said sitting him and running his hand through his hair. He reached for his phone and smiled at a message from Youngjae but then looked back at his best friend. “Jacks, you never get up before 12 on a day you don’t have class.” Mark said trying to wake himself up.
“Need to see Jaebum.”
“Don’t go this early.” Mark mumbled.
“Why?”
“Jinyoung.” Mark said shuffling. “They sleep in the same bed.”
“Because I was there.”
“No, Jacks.” Mark said he was awake now. “They sleep in the same bed, all the time. Jaebum is always curled up against Jinyoung and Jinyoung is always holding him protectively.”
“How do you…” Jackson said looking at Mark.
“I saw it, a few times, and then Jaebum told me everything.” Mark said, remembering how Jaebum had been embarrassed about the whole situation.
“And you never told me?”
“Jacks, in what way was this information important to your life?”
“Now I am definitely going to their room.” Jackson said smiling cheekily, and darting out the door. He smiled as he tried the door to his friends room which just so happened to be unlocked. He smiled when he found the scene exactly the way Mark had said it would be. He crept up and crawled onto the bed so he was lying on both of them. When they started to move, feeling his weight, Jackson couldn’t help but laugh. “So warm and cuddly.” For that he received a punch from Jaebum.
“Why are you here?” Jinyoung asked after they’d all moved to sit up. Jackson just smiled.
“How can you and Jae be so close after you’ve kissed and stuff.”
“Because I fucked him,” Jinyoung said almost proudly, Jaebum cleared his throat. “And after we’d both peaked he-“
“That’s enough Jinyoung.” Jaebum said sternly. “Basically what he’s saying is, he wanted to fuck me, I let him fuck me and we agreed never to do it again.”
“My dick was too big” Jinyoung said with a stupidly cheesy grin on his face.
“You wish it was too big.” Jaebum said rolling his eyes. “You have a pencil dick and that’s why no girl gets on it more than one disappointing time.”
“Have you ever seen Mark’s dick?” Jinyoung asked, before getting punched in the arm by Jaebum.
“What? No, I haven’t.” Jackson said quickly, before looking at Jaebum, “is he getting more stupid?” Jaebum just shrugged and Jinyoung glared at them both. “Can we try having a serious conversation about this, I want things to back to the way they were before.”
“Is that because you were balls deep in his ass.” Jaebum bitched. Jackson moved a little as if to hit Jaebum, and Jinyoung moved, to protect his best friend, then wrapped his arm around Jaebum and gave his arm a squeeze.
“I’m not Jinyoung, I don’t put my dick in my best friend who sleeps with men.” Jackson growled.
“Hey.” Jinyoung said quickly. “I hate how you and Mark always act like us having sex was easy for us. We talked about it and it wasn’t an easy choice.” Jaebum leant a little against Jinyoung. “We’ve fought more since it. It’s harder to watch my best friend pick up girls and guys, because I know how he is. I know what they are getting and I want to protect Jae from people who aren’t like me.”
“And you two aren’t together?”
“No.” Jinyoung said, “I was experimenting.” Jaebum had his eyes closed and Jackson just watched the pair. “He’s not good in the morning Jackson.” Jinyoung sighed and looked at Jackson. “I’ll walk you back, moving and letting Jaebum, lie back down and snuggle into the bed. Jinyoung and Jackson started walking back to Jackson and Mark’s room. “Jackson, you’re lucky, Mark told you how he felt. He might not have said it, but he showed you. You know deep down how he feels. You might not admit it but you know. Jaebum never told me how he felt after we slept together. He went silent,” Jinyoung bit his lip. “He didn’t speak, for half an hour.” Jackson looked at Jinyoung. “He was awake, he just, didn’t say anything.”
“That’s not normal.”
“I fucking know that Jackson.” Jinyoung said, “he acts like he did before. We’re closer to each other, We don’t have any shyness around each other. But I have no idea how he felt. He doesn’t tell me. He just answers back and cuddles me.”
“Do you think-?”
“No, He would tell me if he wanted to do it again.”
“That wasn’t what I meant.” Jackson said quietly.
“Focus on Mark and you.” Jinyoung said quietly. “You don’t want to suddenly realise that you have more and Mark be settling with Youngjae.” Jinyoung sighed, “Jaebum is encouraging Mark to be with Youngjae, so don’t take too long ok?”
Jackson nodded and walked into his and Mark’s room, to see the familiar form of Youngjae sitting on Mark’s bed. Jackson heard the shower running, and assumed Mark was in the shower. Jackson looked over at Youngjae. “Why are you here?” Jackson asked lowly, so Mark couldn’t hear in the shower.
“I’m taking him out to catch a film.” Youngjae smiled a little, “He’s just getting ready, he asked me to come over, he said you’d decided to spend the day with your other friends.” Jackson looked over when Mark came out, his towel wrapped around his waist. He looked at Jackson and then at Youngjae.
“I thought you were going to see Jae.” Mark said. Jackson just looked at him, Mark shifted a bit and then started getting dressed. Once dressed he kissed Youngjae quickly. “I promise I’m nearly done.” He smiled, going in for another kiss. Youngjae’s hand running down Mark’s side and resting on his ass. Jackson cleared his throat, and Mark moved away and started doing his hair.
“Mark.” Jackson said quietly, before standing up and moving over to his best friend and standing as close as he could to the boy. Mark looked at him. “Don’t go with him.” He said quietly. Mark just looked at Jackson. “I can get rid of him.” Jackson hissed. Mark looked at Jackson as if to challenge him. Jackson leaned closer, and just before they could kiss Mark moved back and he looked at Youngjae.
“So am I your second boy?” Youngjae said standing up. Mark punched Jackson in the arm, Jackson ignored him and tried to put his arms around him. “I’ll just go.” Youngjae said pushing past them and leaving. Mark glared at Jackson and pushed him away from him.
“What the fuck Jackson.” Mark growled. “Have you ever thought that I might want a fucking boyfriend. He’s sexy, he’s nice, he genuinely cares about me.”
“Fuck off Mark you barely know him.” Jackson answered back. “I don’t like him. I don’t like him for you.”
“I hate you Jackson.” Mark said “You don’t want me, but you want me to be so fucking unhappy.” Mark felt like he was going to cry. “I really wanted to have a date with him today.” Mark looked at Jackson. “Just because you’re fucking single doesn’t mean you can fuck up a nice date I was going to have.”
“You could have followed him out.” Jackson said quietly, going and lying back down on his bed. “I’ll take you to the cinema after lunch.” Jackson said looking over at Mark, who was just leaning against the wall. Mark let himself drop to the ground, his knees up to his chest. Jackson moved a little and looked at Mark. “Mark, talk to me.”
“I’d rather not. I am so pissed with you.”
“I didn’t stop you following him.” Jackson said quickly.
“Don’t make me get up and punch you in that stupid face of yours.” Mark closed his eyes and leant against the wall. “I don’t even know why I like you right now.” Mark sighed and stood up, he turned back to the mirror and finished getting ready. “I can’t stay here right now, just looking at you is pissing me off.”
“Mark” Jackson said quietly.
“Don’t Jackson, I will punch you.” Mark took a deep breath. “You are so fucked up. Why do you do this to me? Why are you the way you are? What have I ever done to you, for you to want me to be so unhappy?” Mark was on the verge of shouting. “What did I ever do to you to deserve this. Is this because I kissed you? Because I got a little turned on? I’m sorry Jackson Ok, I’m really fucking sorry. I wish I’d never leaned in for that kiss. I wish I’d never gotten drunk, I wish I’d had more control. I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve you fucking my love life because you’re pissed I kissed you.” Jackson just looked at Mark. “I’m sorry I’m gay, and I’m sorry I kissed you when you’re not.”
“Mark” Jackson said softly.
“I just wanted to be with someone who would treat me nicely. I wasn’t going to marry him Jackson. You say you’ll protect me but you’re the one hurting me.” Mark said quietly.
“You think he just wanted the cinema and maybe a kiss? He wanted to go to town on your body.”
“Maybe I want him to fuck me.” Mark lashed back, but then he sighed. “It’s nothing to do with you.” Mark sighed