Nothing In This World... (1/?)
Title: Nothing In This World
Author: the_resolver
Fandom: Got7
Chapter: 1/?
Pairing: Mark/Jackson, Jinyoung/Jaebum, Mark/Youngjae
Rating: R (probably the highest rating for the fic)
Warning: I curse a bit
Summary: One summer, one kiss, one breath it took to make Mark realise how he felt his best friend and then to slowly have to watch his best friend push him away a bit. Starting university is hard enough but to feel like you've made the biggest mistake of your life is something else...
A/N:
Mark sighed as his parents pulled up at the dormitories, he didn’t really want to be here. He wanted to go back to the summer endless lying around, usually at the beach. He bit his lip knowing he would have to face his best friend today. They’d gotten drunk and made out, and it was Jackson that moved away. Mark knew he would have gone further and he knew that Jackson knew that. Then he wondered how much their other friends would have found out. Would they have heard how Mark pretty much threw himself at Jackson after a few drinks? Mark bit his lip and he walked to his room, cursing himself wondering why he applied for his roommate to be Jackson.
He walked in and saw his best friend and offered a smile. They didn’t really talk as they unpacked, until Mark finally spoke up. “Let’s just pretend summer didn’t happen.” He said turning to look at Jackson, part of him hoping the other would say, no I’m glad it happened. But he didn’t get that Jackson just nodded. “Jacks, I’m gay.” Mark said quickly, Jackson nodded again.
“Mark, I’ve known since we were 16.” Jackson said quietly sitting down and looking at Mark, who also sat down. “Look, Mark, it’s better for both of us, if we pretend we didn’t make out over summer. We were really drunk, and you’re my best friend so I don’t want this to be really awkward.” Mark nodded but inside he was a little hurt. There was always something a little more with him in relation to Jackson, he just hadn’t realised it until he’d made out with him. “And I haven’t told the others, there is no way Jinyoung would ever let us hear the end of it.”
“Jaebum would be worse, he’d want to know details. Jinyoung would just laugh.” Mark shrugged and then got up, going back to unpacking, the atmosphere was somewhat better now, but he didn’t feel better, if anything he felt worse. He wished Jackson had said anything when he’d told him he was gay, anything but I know. Ok, so Mark wanted Jackson to say the same thing, but why else would he have kissed back.
Mark didn’t really have time to question it, Jaebum and Jinyoung burst into the room, they were a weird form of tag team. Sometimes Mark wondered why they were inseparable, knowing that Jaebum went both ways. Although so did everyone else, he was rather open, and he liked picking people up. Mark admired that quality about Jaebum, and he was pretty sure Jaebum had slept with Jinyoung, or still does. No one ever really questioned it, Jinyoung was just ‘testing the waters’, and honestly no one was surprised. They were pretty much the same person anyway. Even though Jinyoung insists that he is 100% different to his best friend he really wasn’t. “Hey losers,” that was Jinyoung, Jaebum was somewhat quiet today. “There’s a party tonight if you wanna go, heard there are hot girls, and guys if Jae’s in a guy mood tonight.”
“I’m gender-blind not a mood ring” Jaebum said pushing his best friend. “Anyway, so yeah, party and we happen to know the location, and we’re just being kind and inviting you.” Jaebum laughed a little, looking around at the room. “Did you guys meet up to go shopping to co-ordinate your room?” Mark blushed a little, they both had the same bed sheets, he was embarrassed that it looked like they were fourteen year old girls who had to match because they were best friends. “I mean people think me and Jin are alike but you guys are just creepy.” Jaebum laughed a little, before dragging Jinyoung out the room, shouting something about inviting the others.
“They don’t know you’re gay?” Jackson said once the others were out of the room and the door was closed. Mark just looked at him as if to say, are you really asking me that? Jackson just nodded and then offered an almost smile. “Am I the first person you told?” Mark nodded. “Parents?” Mark shook his head. “Do you… have a boyfriend?” Mark just looked at him.
“Are you kidding me?” Mark said, “Oh no you’re really being serious.” Mark looked at Jackson again and shook his head. “Yes Jacks, I have a boyfriend and I fucking cheated on him with you.” Mark rolled his eyes, “Oh and in case you hadn’t clocked on, I was being sarcastic.” Jackson opened his mouth a little. “Don’t flatter yourself Jacks, you weren’t my first kiss, you weren’t the first person who I made out with and you definitely weren’t the first person to squeeze my arse while we kissed.”
Jackson just nodded a little. “That didn’t happen, remember?” Mark sighed a little, “It doesn’t work if we say we are forgetting it happened and then you’re just going to bring it up when I ask you something you don’t like.” Jackson shifted a little. “Wait you’ve been getting with guys and you never told me?”
“Yes Jacks, I had a boyfriend for most of last year.” Mark shrugged a little. “Let’s just say it didn’t work because I didn’t want you guys to find out.” Mark moved a little and then got up again, moving to grab a jacket there was no point going on about it.
“Did he hurt you?” Jackson said quietly. “Did he break your heart?” Mark looked at Jackson and shook his head. “If he did, just tell me his name and I’ll sort him out.” Mark shook his head.
“I don’t need you to protect me Jacks.” Mark said doing up his jacket. “I’m 13 and in need of a protector anymore.” Mark looked at his best friend. “Look Jacks, don’t worry about it, I’m going to tell the others eventually and then I’ll openly date and then you can worry about boys breaking my heart, ok?” Mark said forcing a smile before leaving, he decided that a walk around the campus was what he needed. He didn’t really like being in new places, or change and then at the same time he worried that in having his three best friends with him he wouldn’t branch out and meet new people. But he was aware that was probably a stupid thought; there was no real reason to think like that. He was the only one doing his degree and he was pretty sure the way things were with Jackson at the moment that he wasn’t going to be spending too much time with his best friend if he could help it.
He didn’t know what he was going to do about everything so it was probably better that he just didn’t say anything, that he just went on as if nothing had happened. As if he wasn’t kissed back, as if Jackson hadn’t moved him to be on top of him as they lay on the beach. Admittedly all Mark really had to think about was when Jackson pushed him off. That was pretty much how it had ended and Mark was pretty sure Jackson had liked the kiss. Although, in saying that he clearly hadn’t as he wanted to forget it ever happened.
Mark walked back, he needed to get ready to go out with Jackson, Jaebum and Jinyoung. When he walked back in Jackson had already showered and was dressed ready to go out. Mark quickly changed, he didn’t need to shower, and honestly he didn’t want to. He liked to spend hours in the shower, just being hit by the water but he didn’t have that time. They didn’t really speak much as Jackson tried to sort his hair out, Mark rolled his eyes and moved over to help his best friend. “I’m sorry I upset you earlier.” Jackson said quietly. “I just say the wrong thing.”
“It’s fine Jacks.” Mark said, he smiled when he’d finished fixing Jackson’s hair and then laughed when his best friend started checking himself out in the mirror. Jackson handed Mark a beer and they sat drinking together, much like they had on the beach when they’d kissed. Mark shook that thought out of his head when he finished his beer and got up to let Jaebum and Jinyoung in. He smiled as Jaebum was dressed up and apparently had discovered eyeliner suited him.
They walked to the party together, but then quickly went their separate ways. Mark was sat down on a sofa talking a boy he only just met. He knew instantly that this boy would want to make out with him at some point during the night. He watched as the other struggled to keep his eyes off him. Mark would be lying if he said he didn’t find the other attractive, and it wasn’t exactly like he cared anymore. He didn’t want to hide anymore and honestly he needed something just to distract him from everything and take him away from his best friend. Mark smiled as the boy leant in and they kissed. Mark’s eyes fluttering shut, his hand moved to rest on the others waist, before he moved his head a little wanting more from the kiss. He didn’t care that the whole party could see. Part of him hoped Jackson was watching.
But that was something he wished he didn’t think. He wished he wasn’t thinking about what Jackson thought as he kissed the boy that was in front of him. He pulled back and gave the other softer shorter kisses. He pulled back completely and offered a smile, moving a bit to lean closer, so they could speak more intimately. Mark didn’t know why but he was pretty sure that he liked the boy he was talking to and he could see himself actually spending time with him. Mark smiled when the other got up to go find them some drinks.
His smile was quick to fade when Jaebum sat next to him. “He’s pretty fine, but I always thought you wanted to sleep with Jackson.” Mark looked over at Jaebum. “Oh did you think I didn’t know? Mark, trust me I can tell a gay guy from a mile away.” Jaebum moved a little and looked at Mark, “Plus you are really into Jackson, it’s pretty obvious, I mean I don’t think Jinyoung knows, but I don’t really think Jinyoung knows what day of the week it is.” Mark just looked at Jaebum, “Hey don’t do that I’m not going to tell him.” Jaebum got up and smirked. “It’s way funnier to watch him think you’re straight.” Mark looked at Jaebum with a confused look. “Hey now, you knew I wasn’t the next winner of best best friend. Oh your boy toy’s coming back.” Jaebum smirked, and leant close to Mark. “If you bring him back, text me and I’ll bring Jackson to bed with me.”
Mark opened his mouth to tell Jaebum not to sleep with Jackson, but he didn’t he just managed out a thank you, and then focused on the boy who was coming back. He smiled and kissed him again, he was pretty sure this boy was coming back with him tonight, so he sent Jaebum a text, there was no way he letting Jackson stop him.
Mark woke up the next morning, when he heard someone entering the room, he sat up and looked at Jackson. Their eyes met and Mark realised he wasn’t wearing clothes and he was lying next to another boy who was also naked. Jackson just nodded and then went into the bathroom. During this time Mark woke up the boy and the boy got dressed giving him another kiss. Jackson came back out when he heard the door shut. “Someone was busy last night.” Jackson said quietly, looking through his stuff, presumably for a different t-shirt to wear. “Does he have a name.”
“Youngjae.” Mark said quietly. Jackson still didn’t turn to look at Mark. “I didn’t have sex with him… Just so you know.”
“You know what Mark, I don’t care.” Jackson said changing his shirt quickly. “I couldn’t care less about you bringing home someone you barely know and doing whatever you want. Maybe you should text me about it, instead of having Jaebum try to kidnap me. I slept in his bed while he slept with Jinyoung and they had an argument about who got to be big spoon in their platonic snuggle session. “ Mark just looked at Jackson, who was now putting everything back where it was before. “I don’t even know why I’m pissed off, because honestly, I thought we were similar but we’re not.”
“Jacks, I’m really confused.”
“Good.” Jackson said finally looking at Mark. “Great. Because that’s what I was yesterday. Because whatever you told Jaebum to tell me wasn’t that you were fucking some random man.”
“We didn’t”
“You’re a liar Mark.”
“You’re the one who wants to pretend summer didn’t happen.”
“You’re the one that told Jaebum.” Jackson said before storming out.
Author: the_resolver
Fandom: Got7
Chapter: 1/?
Pairing: Mark/Jackson, Jinyoung/Jaebum, Mark/Youngjae
Rating: R (probably the highest rating for the fic)
Warning: I curse a bit
Summary: One summer, one kiss, one breath it took to make Mark realise how he felt his best friend and then to slowly have to watch his best friend push him away a bit. Starting university is hard enough but to feel like you've made the biggest mistake of your life is something else...
A/N:
Mark sighed as his parents pulled up at the dormitories, he didn’t really want to be here. He wanted to go back to the summer endless lying around, usually at the beach. He bit his lip knowing he would have to face his best friend today. They’d gotten drunk and made out, and it was Jackson that moved away. Mark knew he would have gone further and he knew that Jackson knew that. Then he wondered how much their other friends would have found out. Would they have heard how Mark pretty much threw himself at Jackson after a few drinks? Mark bit his lip and he walked to his room, cursing himself wondering why he applied for his roommate to be Jackson.
He walked in and saw his best friend and offered a smile. They didn’t really talk as they unpacked, until Mark finally spoke up. “Let’s just pretend summer didn’t happen.” He said turning to look at Jackson, part of him hoping the other would say, no I’m glad it happened. But he didn’t get that Jackson just nodded. “Jacks, I’m gay.” Mark said quickly, Jackson nodded again.
“Mark, I’ve known since we were 16.” Jackson said quietly sitting down and looking at Mark, who also sat down. “Look, Mark, it’s better for both of us, if we pretend we didn’t make out over summer. We were really drunk, and you’re my best friend so I don’t want this to be really awkward.” Mark nodded but inside he was a little hurt. There was always something a little more with him in relation to Jackson, he just hadn’t realised it until he’d made out with him. “And I haven’t told the others, there is no way Jinyoung would ever let us hear the end of it.”
“Jaebum would be worse, he’d want to know details. Jinyoung would just laugh.” Mark shrugged and then got up, going back to unpacking, the atmosphere was somewhat better now, but he didn’t feel better, if anything he felt worse. He wished Jackson had said anything when he’d told him he was gay, anything but I know. Ok, so Mark wanted Jackson to say the same thing, but why else would he have kissed back.
Mark didn’t really have time to question it, Jaebum and Jinyoung burst into the room, they were a weird form of tag team. Sometimes Mark wondered why they were inseparable, knowing that Jaebum went both ways. Although so did everyone else, he was rather open, and he liked picking people up. Mark admired that quality about Jaebum, and he was pretty sure Jaebum had slept with Jinyoung, or still does. No one ever really questioned it, Jinyoung was just ‘testing the waters’, and honestly no one was surprised. They were pretty much the same person anyway. Even though Jinyoung insists that he is 100% different to his best friend he really wasn’t. “Hey losers,” that was Jinyoung, Jaebum was somewhat quiet today. “There’s a party tonight if you wanna go, heard there are hot girls, and guys if Jae’s in a guy mood tonight.”
“I’m gender-blind not a mood ring” Jaebum said pushing his best friend. “Anyway, so yeah, party and we happen to know the location, and we’re just being kind and inviting you.” Jaebum laughed a little, looking around at the room. “Did you guys meet up to go shopping to co-ordinate your room?” Mark blushed a little, they both had the same bed sheets, he was embarrassed that it looked like they were fourteen year old girls who had to match because they were best friends. “I mean people think me and Jin are alike but you guys are just creepy.” Jaebum laughed a little, before dragging Jinyoung out the room, shouting something about inviting the others.
“They don’t know you’re gay?” Jackson said once the others were out of the room and the door was closed. Mark just looked at him as if to say, are you really asking me that? Jackson just nodded and then offered an almost smile. “Am I the first person you told?” Mark nodded. “Parents?” Mark shook his head. “Do you… have a boyfriend?” Mark just looked at him.
“Are you kidding me?” Mark said, “Oh no you’re really being serious.” Mark looked at Jackson again and shook his head. “Yes Jacks, I have a boyfriend and I fucking cheated on him with you.” Mark rolled his eyes, “Oh and in case you hadn’t clocked on, I was being sarcastic.” Jackson opened his mouth a little. “Don’t flatter yourself Jacks, you weren’t my first kiss, you weren’t the first person who I made out with and you definitely weren’t the first person to squeeze my arse while we kissed.”
Jackson just nodded a little. “That didn’t happen, remember?” Mark sighed a little, “It doesn’t work if we say we are forgetting it happened and then you’re just going to bring it up when I ask you something you don’t like.” Jackson shifted a little. “Wait you’ve been getting with guys and you never told me?”
“Yes Jacks, I had a boyfriend for most of last year.” Mark shrugged a little. “Let’s just say it didn’t work because I didn’t want you guys to find out.” Mark moved a little and then got up again, moving to grab a jacket there was no point going on about it.
“Did he hurt you?” Jackson said quietly. “Did he break your heart?” Mark looked at Jackson and shook his head. “If he did, just tell me his name and I’ll sort him out.” Mark shook his head.
“I don’t need you to protect me Jacks.” Mark said doing up his jacket. “I’m 13 and in need of a protector anymore.” Mark looked at his best friend. “Look Jacks, don’t worry about it, I’m going to tell the others eventually and then I’ll openly date and then you can worry about boys breaking my heart, ok?” Mark said forcing a smile before leaving, he decided that a walk around the campus was what he needed. He didn’t really like being in new places, or change and then at the same time he worried that in having his three best friends with him he wouldn’t branch out and meet new people. But he was aware that was probably a stupid thought; there was no real reason to think like that. He was the only one doing his degree and he was pretty sure the way things were with Jackson at the moment that he wasn’t going to be spending too much time with his best friend if he could help it.
He didn’t know what he was going to do about everything so it was probably better that he just didn’t say anything, that he just went on as if nothing had happened. As if he wasn’t kissed back, as if Jackson hadn’t moved him to be on top of him as they lay on the beach. Admittedly all Mark really had to think about was when Jackson pushed him off. That was pretty much how it had ended and Mark was pretty sure Jackson had liked the kiss. Although, in saying that he clearly hadn’t as he wanted to forget it ever happened.
Mark walked back, he needed to get ready to go out with Jackson, Jaebum and Jinyoung. When he walked back in Jackson had already showered and was dressed ready to go out. Mark quickly changed, he didn’t need to shower, and honestly he didn’t want to. He liked to spend hours in the shower, just being hit by the water but he didn’t have that time. They didn’t really speak much as Jackson tried to sort his hair out, Mark rolled his eyes and moved over to help his best friend. “I’m sorry I upset you earlier.” Jackson said quietly. “I just say the wrong thing.”
“It’s fine Jacks.” Mark said, he smiled when he’d finished fixing Jackson’s hair and then laughed when his best friend started checking himself out in the mirror. Jackson handed Mark a beer and they sat drinking together, much like they had on the beach when they’d kissed. Mark shook that thought out of his head when he finished his beer and got up to let Jaebum and Jinyoung in. He smiled as Jaebum was dressed up and apparently had discovered eyeliner suited him.
They walked to the party together, but then quickly went their separate ways. Mark was sat down on a sofa talking a boy he only just met. He knew instantly that this boy would want to make out with him at some point during the night. He watched as the other struggled to keep his eyes off him. Mark would be lying if he said he didn’t find the other attractive, and it wasn’t exactly like he cared anymore. He didn’t want to hide anymore and honestly he needed something just to distract him from everything and take him away from his best friend. Mark smiled as the boy leant in and they kissed. Mark’s eyes fluttering shut, his hand moved to rest on the others waist, before he moved his head a little wanting more from the kiss. He didn’t care that the whole party could see. Part of him hoped Jackson was watching.
But that was something he wished he didn’t think. He wished he wasn’t thinking about what Jackson thought as he kissed the boy that was in front of him. He pulled back and gave the other softer shorter kisses. He pulled back completely and offered a smile, moving a bit to lean closer, so they could speak more intimately. Mark didn’t know why but he was pretty sure that he liked the boy he was talking to and he could see himself actually spending time with him. Mark smiled when the other got up to go find them some drinks.
His smile was quick to fade when Jaebum sat next to him. “He’s pretty fine, but I always thought you wanted to sleep with Jackson.” Mark looked over at Jaebum. “Oh did you think I didn’t know? Mark, trust me I can tell a gay guy from a mile away.” Jaebum moved a little and looked at Mark, “Plus you are really into Jackson, it’s pretty obvious, I mean I don’t think Jinyoung knows, but I don’t really think Jinyoung knows what day of the week it is.” Mark just looked at Jaebum, “Hey don’t do that I’m not going to tell him.” Jaebum got up and smirked. “It’s way funnier to watch him think you’re straight.” Mark looked at Jaebum with a confused look. “Hey now, you knew I wasn’t the next winner of best best friend. Oh your boy toy’s coming back.” Jaebum smirked, and leant close to Mark. “If you bring him back, text me and I’ll bring Jackson to bed with me.”
Mark opened his mouth to tell Jaebum not to sleep with Jackson, but he didn’t he just managed out a thank you, and then focused on the boy who was coming back. He smiled and kissed him again, he was pretty sure this boy was coming back with him tonight, so he sent Jaebum a text, there was no way he letting Jackson stop him.
Mark woke up the next morning, when he heard someone entering the room, he sat up and looked at Jackson. Their eyes met and Mark realised he wasn’t wearing clothes and he was lying next to another boy who was also naked. Jackson just nodded and then went into the bathroom. During this time Mark woke up the boy and the boy got dressed giving him another kiss. Jackson came back out when he heard the door shut. “Someone was busy last night.” Jackson said quietly, looking through his stuff, presumably for a different t-shirt to wear. “Does he have a name.”
“Youngjae.” Mark said quietly. Jackson still didn’t turn to look at Mark. “I didn’t have sex with him… Just so you know.”
“You know what Mark, I don’t care.” Jackson said changing his shirt quickly. “I couldn’t care less about you bringing home someone you barely know and doing whatever you want. Maybe you should text me about it, instead of having Jaebum try to kidnap me. I slept in his bed while he slept with Jinyoung and they had an argument about who got to be big spoon in their platonic snuggle session. “ Mark just looked at Jackson, who was now putting everything back where it was before. “I don’t even know why I’m pissed off, because honestly, I thought we were similar but we’re not.”
“Jacks, I’m really confused.”
“Good.” Jackson said finally looking at Mark. “Great. Because that’s what I was yesterday. Because whatever you told Jaebum to tell me wasn’t that you were fucking some random man.”
“We didn’t”
“You’re a liar Mark.”
“You’re the one who wants to pretend summer didn’t happen.”
“You’re the one that told Jaebum.” Jackson said before storming out.