s. cruz
for some reason, my grandma thinks turning the thermostat to 60 degrees is turning the heater on.
i have three blankets on my bed.
she also likes to go to bed by 9 and wake up at 6.
then she likes to make as much noise as possible in order to wake me up.
sometimes she even talks to me while i'm trying to sleep.
other than that, things are okay here.
i am not really crazy about having to answer to someone again or like have them wait up for me.
i haven't done that in almost three years.
the commute is also a bitch, and i spend 60% of the time crashing couches, which means my shower schedule is not what i'd like it to be.
still, being able to run down here every few nights, get a hot meal and a bed to sleep in feels nice.
i need to get away sometimes.
i've been meaning to update about a lot of things.
my move...
the shows i've been to and movies i've seen...
the sadness i felt when discovering one of my acting idols had passed...
my take on the political scene...
the inexplicable situation i find myself in regards to romance...
but every time i sit down and i look at my computer my mind and my typing seems to wander, and most often i find myself writing in the journal i bought myself in london two years ago.
i may be making a shift back to paper and the hermit days, when i didn't type every little whim for the whole world to see.
but then again, i think i also just have too much in my head to put in one lj update.
i am kind of overwhelmed right now.
i need to figure out where/when i'm moving.
i need to plan/save for my trip to austin in march and nyc in april or may.
i also need to just work on myself being more open to some things and not get so scared about things before they even happen.
yeah.
so, i'll buck up soon.
i have three blankets on my bed.
she also likes to go to bed by 9 and wake up at 6.
then she likes to make as much noise as possible in order to wake me up.
sometimes she even talks to me while i'm trying to sleep.
other than that, things are okay here.
i am not really crazy about having to answer to someone again or like have them wait up for me.
i haven't done that in almost three years.
the commute is also a bitch, and i spend 60% of the time crashing couches, which means my shower schedule is not what i'd like it to be.
still, being able to run down here every few nights, get a hot meal and a bed to sleep in feels nice.
i need to get away sometimes.
i've been meaning to update about a lot of things.
my move...
the shows i've been to and movies i've seen...
the sadness i felt when discovering one of my acting idols had passed...
my take on the political scene...
the inexplicable situation i find myself in regards to romance...
but every time i sit down and i look at my computer my mind and my typing seems to wander, and most often i find myself writing in the journal i bought myself in london two years ago.
i may be making a shift back to paper and the hermit days, when i didn't type every little whim for the whole world to see.
but then again, i think i also just have too much in my head to put in one lj update.
i am kind of overwhelmed right now.
i need to figure out where/when i'm moving.
i need to plan/save for my trip to austin in march and nyc in april or may.
i also need to just work on myself being more open to some things and not get so scared about things before they even happen.
yeah.
so, i'll buck up soon.