Mehhhh
I wish I could figure out what the hell I want. Once again I find myself second guessing the possibility of dating someone again. I had a long conversation with my room mate about it today. She thinks I should just give it a chance. But I dont want to hurt anyone. Better to end it now, before feelings are invested. Dont get me wrong, this guy is amazing in so many ways. And I really do enjoy spending time with him. I just dont think im ready to let my guard down and let someone in again.
I have only been in love twice, and both men severely fucked up and hurt me. And considering the fact that I may still be in love with one of said ex's, I probably shouldnt be getting involved with anyone. But what worries me is that ill never get over him. And ill never let myself fully love someone else again. I know it sounds ridiculous. But it isnt fair to hang out with someone, when I still think of HIM all the time. I honestly thought I was over it until 2 weeks ago. I suppose you dont realize your feelings for someone until you look in their eyes again. And he has beautiful eyes. I probably should have taken some time to sort out my feelings before hanging out with someone new. So the question is what am I supposed to do now? Do I tell him how I feel? Im almost 100% certain the feeling isnt mutual, and telling him anything wouldnt make a difference in the world. But I feel like just coming out and saying it would give me peace of mind.
Or do I continue to hang out with this other guy and hope that these feelings of doubt will go away and ill be able to finally let go and move on. Im stuck in a messy web of emotions and I dont like it. I wish I could go back to not caring about anyone or anything. It seems like life was much easier then.
Posted via LjBeetle
I have only been in love twice, and both men severely fucked up and hurt me. And considering the fact that I may still be in love with one of said ex's, I probably shouldnt be getting involved with anyone. But what worries me is that ill never get over him. And ill never let myself fully love someone else again. I know it sounds ridiculous. But it isnt fair to hang out with someone, when I still think of HIM all the time. I honestly thought I was over it until 2 weeks ago. I suppose you dont realize your feelings for someone until you look in their eyes again. And he has beautiful eyes. I probably should have taken some time to sort out my feelings before hanging out with someone new. So the question is what am I supposed to do now? Do I tell him how I feel? Im almost 100% certain the feeling isnt mutual, and telling him anything wouldnt make a difference in the world. But I feel like just coming out and saying it would give me peace of mind.
Or do I continue to hang out with this other guy and hope that these feelings of doubt will go away and ill be able to finally let go and move on. Im stuck in a messy web of emotions and I dont like it. I wish I could go back to not caring about anyone or anything. It seems like life was much easier then.
Posted via LjBeetle