Good things do happen.
Went to go see molotov play last night and hung out with the boys. It was so nice to see everyone. I missed them like crazy. Myschel my bell and I worked out our differences and are friends again. Its such a relief because I really did miss her. Spent the day with her today, went and got coffee, ventured around elmwood and just talked about everything. I feel bad for her because she hasnt been very happy lately. And im bummed shes leaving because she broke up with her boyfriend. But I honestly dont blame her. Im getting sick of this city as well. I love my friends here, but im just not happy for whatever reason. I don't want to give up because staying here and making it work is so important to me. But I so badly just want to go home. As I sit here in a room full of people I feel completely alone. I thought a sleep over at Norah's would make me feel better, but I would rather be at home alone. Tired of hearing stories that involve my ex boyfriend. Mainly because hes hurt me more then any guy has in my life. I wish I could hate him. But thats just not the kind of person I am.
I talked to my mom today and she informed me that my fathers best friend was killed in a car accident. I have only seen my dad cry a couple times my whole life, and she said he hasnt been able to stop crying for days. My heart hurts for him...
Maybe im feeling this way because im pms'ing, but im sick of feeling this way. And I feel bad because the guy I have been talking to notices my change in mood, and trys to be there for me. But I just dont trust him enough to open up to him. And I already notice myself pushing him away anyway. He's just not what im looking for, or the one I want. But the one I want isn't the right one for me. And has already moved on. I really wish I could go back in time and change things. Hopefully the guy Norah sets me up with will be everything im looking for.
Ok enough depressing wah wahhh stuff. Im going to bed.
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I talked to my mom today and she informed me that my fathers best friend was killed in a car accident. I have only seen my dad cry a couple times my whole life, and she said he hasnt been able to stop crying for days. My heart hurts for him...
Maybe im feeling this way because im pms'ing, but im sick of feeling this way. And I feel bad because the guy I have been talking to notices my change in mood, and trys to be there for me. But I just dont trust him enough to open up to him. And I already notice myself pushing him away anyway. He's just not what im looking for, or the one I want. But the one I want isn't the right one for me. And has already moved on. I really wish I could go back in time and change things. Hopefully the guy Norah sets me up with will be everything im looking for.
Ok enough depressing wah wahhh stuff. Im going to bed.
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