Hello to anyone that cares
Well this is different, its actually a whole lot easier to pretend to be someone else. I'm really nervous about this. I never did keep a real journal about my life, about all the stuff that happened to me as a boy, or a teen, or a man. I try to forget all the bad times and think about those happy moments spent with family and friends.
I just want to say that I have greatly enjoyed being on LiveJournal over the past months, and meeting some amazing writers. I am honored to even interact with such talented and fun characters. And as long as they want me I will try to be there anyway I can.
Not to say that things have been easy, I have been totally depressed lately. I get so caught up in my characters problems, that there doesn't seem to be a point where he ends and I begin, which is why this journal is born. I really need to get out my frustration and depressing thoughts that are eating me up inside. The last couple of weeks have been the worst I can remember in a long time, and believe you me, I have had alot of sucky weeks. The problem is that I am so closely connected to my LJ character Grant Douglas, and being him feels so real to me, that criticism and rejection of him, feels like criticism and rejection of me. It really hurts when you treat everyone with kindness and respect, but receive insults and rejection from those you try so hard to be friends with. All I want to do online is make some friends and have some fun, is that to much to ask, to have a little bit of fun and try to forget about how bad life really sucks. I guess it is.
And I am sorry to everyone for my lack of chatiness lately, I have just been too depressed to chat with anyone on AIM's. I just need some time alone, to build back up my energy for the future.
I just want to say that I have greatly enjoyed being on LiveJournal over the past months, and meeting some amazing writers. I am honored to even interact with such talented and fun characters. And as long as they want me I will try to be there anyway I can.
Not to say that things have been easy, I have been totally depressed lately. I get so caught up in my characters problems, that there doesn't seem to be a point where he ends and I begin, which is why this journal is born. I really need to get out my frustration and depressing thoughts that are eating me up inside. The last couple of weeks have been the worst I can remember in a long time, and believe you me, I have had alot of sucky weeks. The problem is that I am so closely connected to my LJ character Grant Douglas, and being him feels so real to me, that criticism and rejection of him, feels like criticism and rejection of me. It really hurts when you treat everyone with kindness and respect, but receive insults and rejection from those you try so hard to be friends with. All I want to do online is make some friends and have some fun, is that to much to ask, to have a little bit of fun and try to forget about how bad life really sucks. I guess it is.
And I am sorry to everyone for my lack of chatiness lately, I have just been too depressed to chat with anyone on AIM's. I just need some time alone, to build back up my energy for the future.