I need change
so summer's here.. myspace sucks now. facebook kinda sucked at first and now it's like myspace. One can always count on LJ to vent out. Anyway, I've had a lot of time to myself and I've realized a lot of things. I'm alone, for one. "Everyone I know goes away in the end." as that song says. but it's okay, I guess it happens to some people. I've always thought I was better off alone and I think it's now starting to show that it's true. I have so many goals I want to accomplish and things I just wanna do and experience. I think people or "friends" will only hold me back. I'm afraid I'm too...in my own world and that there's no one else like me, who wants, likes, thinks, does the same things I do. One of the reasons I stayed here for college was for friends. I didn't wanna miss out since a lot of people were staying but now I see it wasn't really worth it. Yeah it was fun but I just always want more; I want it all. I'm ready to go away and just rebuild my life the way I want it to be. I was considering UTSA but it probably won't make a difference. So I'm considering going out of state but that's all complicated and fuckin expensive. Maybe I should just go live in Mexico. I wish I could know if the world is gonna end in 2012. That would be kinda cool. I would go do crazy shit, travel everywhere, and eat all day.
Well anyway, the entry went completely off track and I'm getting pretty sleepy.
Well anyway, the entry went completely off track and I'm getting pretty sleepy.