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i feel like my words are falling, like my lips drip with stupidity. every time i speak i grasp for the letters back again but they slip by. am i not able? i forget how to spell through and out and i am no thesaurus. i am not of worth anymore, with nothing to offer but blank stares and maybe a pretty face. i'm stuck to everything i hate; those smile and nods, laughs at the right places, simple agreements. i have become awkward and unintelligent and i hate you for doing this to me, but mostly i hate myself.