troubling
My one and only LJ,
I know it's 3 in the morning and I'm supposed to be studying for a huge test tomorrow, but I need to get this off of my mind.
Last Saturday, I smoked for the first time. I knew it was something I would try at some point, just to try--the fact that I tried it doesn't worry me. My feelings about it now worry me. I guess my feelings now worry me because I always told myself I would never, ever do that, and yet I did it, without much difficulty at the time. And right now there isn't a very loud voice in my head saying not to do it again. In fact, it's at a semi-whisper level at the moment.
I'm just... Worried for myself about not being worried?
Wow. That sounds stupid.
Goodnight LJ.
I know it's 3 in the morning and I'm supposed to be studying for a huge test tomorrow, but I need to get this off of my mind.
Last Saturday, I smoked for the first time. I knew it was something I would try at some point, just to try--the fact that I tried it doesn't worry me. My feelings about it now worry me. I guess my feelings now worry me because I always told myself I would never, ever do that, and yet I did it, without much difficulty at the time. And right now there isn't a very loud voice in my head saying not to do it again. In fact, it's at a semi-whisper level at the moment.
I'm just... Worried for myself about not being worried?
Wow. That sounds stupid.
Goodnight LJ.