this is LJ worthy
for those who don't check out my blog...
this is what I feel like...
incase anyone is wondering...this has nothing to do w/ Nxxxa...she is one person I can honestly say that I don't care about anymore...and how much I tried to be "cool" w/ her was only failures for me...some people would call me an obsessive creep,even her, I wouldn't go that far...I guess I'm too EMOtional...I feel like the guy in that painting...and she on the other side is going to get more lost and confused, and I'm gonna try to find another way, but it will only be unsuccessful...I'm not a negative person...I'm just not in a positive mood right now...the worst of me comes out when I'm alone...which happens a bit frequently now...I feel like my hopes are always being given up...should I give up?...idk yet...only time will tell...I never get much out w/ my emotions...I'm not embracing, and that upsets me even though it's not my fault...nothing much comes out of poems or lyrics...idk how long I will run around in this puzzle...I'm still WAITING to embrace...I'm still WAITING to be picked up...I realize that I WAIT a lot...it's not my fault...nobody really knows how I feel...I don't expose myself to the world...that painting above should be enough exposure for anyone...I know what it feels like now...does anybody else know?...did anyone forget?...does anyone still know?...I wonder...should I wonder?...idk...maybe I shouldn't...although being a careless person wouldn't be my character...I can go on & on & on, but who cares?
"I'm not a bad man...I'm just over whelmed" -SWR
this is what I feel like...
incase anyone is wondering...this has nothing to do w/ Nxxxa...she is one person I can honestly say that I don't care about anymore...and how much I tried to be "cool" w/ her was only failures for me...some people would call me an obsessive creep,even her, I wouldn't go that far...I guess I'm too EMOtional...I feel like the guy in that painting...and she on the other side is going to get more lost and confused, and I'm gonna try to find another way, but it will only be unsuccessful...I'm not a negative person...I'm just not in a positive mood right now...the worst of me comes out when I'm alone...which happens a bit frequently now...I feel like my hopes are always being given up...should I give up?...idk yet...only time will tell...I never get much out w/ my emotions...I'm not embracing, and that upsets me even though it's not my fault...nothing much comes out of poems or lyrics...idk how long I will run around in this puzzle...I'm still WAITING to embrace...I'm still WAITING to be picked up...I realize that I WAIT a lot...it's not my fault...nobody really knows how I feel...I don't expose myself to the world...that painting above should be enough exposure for anyone...I know what it feels like now...does anybody else know?...did anyone forget?...does anyone still know?...I wonder...should I wonder?...idk...maybe I shouldn't...although being a careless person wouldn't be my character...I can go on & on & on, but who cares?
"I'm not a bad man...I'm just over whelmed" -SWR