Living in this... waking life...
So I've had a fairly rough week which all sorta came to a head tonight. A whole bunch of personal, family, friend, and life issues all just came crashing down on my head tonight. I don't know why but I've become very cold all of a sudden. It's not me at all. I'm short in conversation, and I'm telling people what they don't want to hear just so they'll have to hear it. Everything I've done in the past 3 hours has been so detremental to my relationships with family and friends that I can almost no longer see myself in the mirror. I'm not sure what it is, but I can't even be friendly to the one person who could never ever be anything but friendly to me. The desires of men: wealth, power, Lust etc. for some reason all of these have left me. One would think that'd make me a better person, to not have all these bad images of what I should be. Life's great questions are immenate, but all I can ask myself is "What will you do now"?