Family Emergency
I've been having a lot of ups and down this week. My father went into the hospital on Saturday. His kidneys had failued due to a massive infection. This is the first near death experience we've had in my neuclear family, and it was incredibly frighting. When I heard about this I immediately wanted to be with my family to help them, but my family is similar to me. They are bullheaded and feel they can get through anything without help from others. Thus they told all of us who were out of town to stay put. I have obeyed their wishes, however it's been torturous not being there for them during this time and whenever I ask if there is anything I can do to help out, I am told not to worry about it.
Anyway, we've been getting updates from my lil' brother who lives in the same city. The updates have been spuratic, however I've sat next to enough friends in hospitals that I know what it's like...the number one thing on your mind is their health. Of course, not having a support network here doesn't help at all with my emotional state. The only person I have to talk to is my husband, and he jokingly told me this week that I'm "a bad child" for not going to see my dad in the hospital. Needless to say, this cut to the bone and has thrown me into a deep depression. It so sucks not being needed when you feel like you should be...
On a positive front, the little information I'm getting appears my father is getting better. Although he probably will not have full functioning of both kidneys, they're hopeful that he's not going to be on dialysis by the time it is over with.
I really miss my family right now...
Anyway, we've been getting updates from my lil' brother who lives in the same city. The updates have been spuratic, however I've sat next to enough friends in hospitals that I know what it's like...the number one thing on your mind is their health. Of course, not having a support network here doesn't help at all with my emotional state. The only person I have to talk to is my husband, and he jokingly told me this week that I'm "a bad child" for not going to see my dad in the hospital. Needless to say, this cut to the bone and has thrown me into a deep depression. It so sucks not being needed when you feel like you should be...
On a positive front, the little information I'm getting appears my father is getting better. Although he probably will not have full functioning of both kidneys, they're hopeful that he's not going to be on dialysis by the time it is over with.
I really miss my family right now...