Living the Life?
Got free Braves tickets last night through corporate from ACN. We were RIGHT down near the field....like first level seats. I dont remember ever being that close in my entire life. I jokingly said, "I could get used to this lifestyle!" and later, regretted saying that after I saw Greg's building he works in and the fucking nice office and view he has on the 24th floor. I don't know if I could get used to that. I felt great all day yesterday, like everything was working out and even though I was working a lot and didnt have one full-time career type job, I was happy. Then I felt worthless after seeing that. Jealousy? Maybe. Yeah, it was I think. I also felt like I wasn't good enough, felt like I didnt belong. Suddenly didnt belong with him, in that building, in those fancy elevators....any of it. I dont know why. Greg is the least pretentious person on the planet. He told me he didnt care where I worked, as long as I was with him and he knows something will work out soon. He said the office isnt a big deal (though I thought it certainly was) and it was just work to him.
For some reason, that took the wind right out of me and made me feel ill. It's not a big deal or a nice office??? Where the hell did you work before? How can you be THIS successful when you're 24?
Oh, that's right. You did about 7 internships (at least) while you were in college, majored in Journalism because it was offered, and worked in fucking New York for the AP there for six months.
That's right. I worked two internships, majored in English because OGLETHORPE doesnt offer Journalism.
I think what I'm doing right now, is what Greg already did in college. I'm just getting a little bit of a late start. Not too bad considering I decided I wanted to write when I was a JUNIOR.
That's how I usually roll though, wait until the last minute.
Like I said, he wasnt trying to be mean, or rub it in my face. For the record, I am not mad at him in any way...just incredibly jealous.
Then I began to think about it.
I dont know if I'd like having to sit in an office for 8 hours a day, in a corporate environment. I enjoy being on my feet and running around. I enjoy writing, I enjoy reporting. Maybe me not making the cut with any of these jobs I have applied for over the last year-and-a-half is a sign I'm not meant for that. I could totally see myself writing for an alternative weekly again, or some sort of magazine...but I wouldnt want to sit in the office all the time. I'd want to do reporting, and I'd also like to get with something less corporate than AP.
Maybe seeing this opened my eyes that I am doing what I need to do all along and everything will fall into place eventually.
Exactly where it belongs.
Where I belong.
I still could get used to sitting field level at Braves games though...I'm not going to lie =)
For some reason, that took the wind right out of me and made me feel ill. It's not a big deal or a nice office??? Where the hell did you work before? How can you be THIS successful when you're 24?
Oh, that's right. You did about 7 internships (at least) while you were in college, majored in Journalism because it was offered, and worked in fucking New York for the AP there for six months.
That's right. I worked two internships, majored in English because OGLETHORPE doesnt offer Journalism.
I think what I'm doing right now, is what Greg already did in college. I'm just getting a little bit of a late start. Not too bad considering I decided I wanted to write when I was a JUNIOR.
That's how I usually roll though, wait until the last minute.
Like I said, he wasnt trying to be mean, or rub it in my face. For the record, I am not mad at him in any way...just incredibly jealous.
Then I began to think about it.
I dont know if I'd like having to sit in an office for 8 hours a day, in a corporate environment. I enjoy being on my feet and running around. I enjoy writing, I enjoy reporting. Maybe me not making the cut with any of these jobs I have applied for over the last year-and-a-half is a sign I'm not meant for that. I could totally see myself writing for an alternative weekly again, or some sort of magazine...but I wouldnt want to sit in the office all the time. I'd want to do reporting, and I'd also like to get with something less corporate than AP.
Maybe seeing this opened my eyes that I am doing what I need to do all along and everything will fall into place eventually.
Exactly where it belongs.
Where I belong.
I still could get used to sitting field level at Braves games though...I'm not going to lie =)