i guess i feel like being a weenis. hella snausage style dawg..get it "bark bark"

[the_ottoman_fur]

okay so this evening i went out for a walk and looked for answers where i figured they would best sought after. in between two trees that could possibly resemble a wooden hammock.staring at the bark i saw a shape i thought could resemble an antelope.so i helped make it into one. i heard birds chirping and thought about the song "blackbird" by the beatles and so i put that on, listened to it, and then remembered the reason why i have a tattoo of lennon on my arm and the quote i am getting tattooed around it. the quote "take these broken wings and learn to fly" i have always liked those lyrics.for one reason or another they apply to difficult situations i find myself caught up in. like a bird i once helped nurture back to a healthy flying state with my mother when i was young, you have to take all the less fortunate events that occur in your life and mold them into something that is more fathomable. you can learn from your mistakes and carry yourself further in life by simply rebuilding yourself to standards which you desire.i also couldnt help but think about what my life is going to be like when i find the perfect girl. one that is willing to get lost and could care less if they come back but still has the drive and inhibitions to want to stay in reality for they have all the right answers to lifes wierdest questions, one who when shit gets rough will be there with the water wings while i paddle our asses out of harms way.one who even if they are scared shitless will know that i will be right there to catch them and hold them tight when the world just wants to let them fall into a mud puddle.i just want a fucking chill girl who likes chill music and doesnt just wanna do drugs to get fucked up but to open there minds to new possibilities and see that there are possibly other dimensions where what you say doesnt necessarily have to make sense, where even mumbled jumbles make sense, a place where you can stare of into the clouds for hours and just let your eyes do all the work so you can let your mind catch up later because everything is so fast paced that it feels like time would be better spent observing all the beauty life offers and then when the tide has gone and all is hollowed out there is still a place where structure lies in a condensed light because somehow the stars have aligned perfectly to where when light rays travel through the sky it feels as though the world should crumble because the weight of everything that there ever was overpowers all the negative aspects portray in life.

in the few days i have spent in a treetop town it feels like i have reached total nirvana yet it is dangled in front of my face simply because lifes greatest gifts are the ones where you have to wait to receive them.life is like christmas when the day finally comes you got the gifts and then you get suprised with a stocking and fresh cinnamon rolls. i hope christmas comes just in time for the new year. because i am sick of waiting yet i will do it anyways because its part of beinging in the spirit and free spirits are great for chasing around lifes backroads.