I'M GOING TO FREAKFEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think i hate joe.....
so every since india got to "party" with me she has been all over the idea of going to a rave with me. well, we were all planning on going to freakfest (may 29th), but it hasn't been discussed since ummmm...the new years rave. so i told india that the canoe trip she was planning would conflict with the rave...if everyone was still planning on going. it is only the 6th and she's trying to get tickets, transportation, and hotel rooms all lined up already. yea...i won't be the only girl...which means i we won't end up driving right back home, and we can acctually relax and have a good time. we won't drive for 5 hours, party for 10, and then turn around and drive another 5 hours. ugh...boys are already a little disconnected, but riding in a van with 3 gap-headed boys is just friggin ridiculous. anyway. thankfully india will be there to keep me sane!!
i have a question...a couple of months ago my boyfriends best friend accused me of cheating on james with one of my good friends...this of course was so not true...so basically he was just spreading lies about me and telling my boyfriend that i'm cheating on him. well, i finally convinced james, but i still find myself absolutely hating his friend. i never got an apology...he acts as if my opinions or whatever i think is wrong...i understand he IS super smart, but i'm allowed to think and feel however i want without him making me look dumb right. i mean this isn't even on book smart stuff...it is on matter of opinion stuff...so my opinion is wrong, and his is always right. he drives me crazy...even when james found out that none of it was true...he wasn't mad at him for lying on me...things just went back to normal, and i was left feeling bad for all this stuff that wasn't even my fault. i was hurt that my boyfriend didn't believe me, then he didn't stand up for me (he just forgave his stoopid friend for making me look like a slut...i mean they can still be friends, but what about making me look bad...shouldn't he be mad at him for doing that to me?), then i don't get an apology for all of the shit that he put on me...for something i didn't even do. it really makes me feel bad...and we used to be really good friend, but i just cannot stand him...and i feel bad because it is my boyfriends best friend...i don't feel like i have a right to come between that, but what about my hurt feelings and the things he put me through? arguments with james, james not trusting me, james not wanting me to hang out with ivan (who was only treating me like a friend)...the only reason i was spending so much time with ivan was because everybody else forgot that i even existed...he would call me and see how i was doing...and joe (who was supposedly my friend) wouldn't have anything to do with me unless james was around...kinda like how all my friends are (accept for ivan and india). how should i feel about this....i want to tell james that it has been bugging me for a long time, but once again i don't want to start an argument...unless it really needs to happen. if it's not worth it then i'd rather just not bring it up. HELP ME!!!
plurness,
katy
i have a question...a couple of months ago my boyfriends best friend accused me of cheating on james with one of my good friends...this of course was so not true...so basically he was just spreading lies about me and telling my boyfriend that i'm cheating on him. well, i finally convinced james, but i still find myself absolutely hating his friend. i never got an apology...he acts as if my opinions or whatever i think is wrong...i understand he IS super smart, but i'm allowed to think and feel however i want without him making me look dumb right. i mean this isn't even on book smart stuff...it is on matter of opinion stuff...so my opinion is wrong, and his is always right. he drives me crazy...even when james found out that none of it was true...he wasn't mad at him for lying on me...things just went back to normal, and i was left feeling bad for all this stuff that wasn't even my fault. i was hurt that my boyfriend didn't believe me, then he didn't stand up for me (he just forgave his stoopid friend for making me look like a slut...i mean they can still be friends, but what about making me look bad...shouldn't he be mad at him for doing that to me?), then i don't get an apology for all of the shit that he put on me...for something i didn't even do. it really makes me feel bad...and we used to be really good friend, but i just cannot stand him...and i feel bad because it is my boyfriends best friend...i don't feel like i have a right to come between that, but what about my hurt feelings and the things he put me through? arguments with james, james not trusting me, james not wanting me to hang out with ivan (who was only treating me like a friend)...the only reason i was spending so much time with ivan was because everybody else forgot that i even existed...he would call me and see how i was doing...and joe (who was supposedly my friend) wouldn't have anything to do with me unless james was around...kinda like how all my friends are (accept for ivan and india). how should i feel about this....i want to tell james that it has been bugging me for a long time, but once again i don't want to start an argument...unless it really needs to happen. if it's not worth it then i'd rather just not bring it up. HELP ME!!!
plurness,
katy