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[the_other_emily]

so this is bad.
i'm smoking in my room. and not out the window. just legit in my room. gross.
caitlin and i just made delicious dinner of our own special recipe of frickadel and hot chip. (all we listen to now)
now i'm in my room about to start researching for this paper i have to write.
and getting stressed/not stressed about my studio project.
and getting stressed about specific people. but trying not to.
and getting overly obsessed about this concept we keep talking about in my kierkegaard class about loosing yourself to find yourself.
one morning when i was riding the bus home alone from a particularly intense night i realized that that phrase is probably a pretty good description of my life now. but i couldn't remember where it was from. and then i realized it was from class. so even though i thought i wasn't taking anything from that class, apparentally i was taking basically everything from it. but at least kierkegaard thinks thats good. and it's probably a real good thing to do here and now.

ugh. alright. research.
i swear. i think i found a drinking problem along with myself.