I just realized

[the_old_inout]

that order, syllabi and classes, make me very happy. like really really happy. They just calm me, and make me feel like everything is all right in the world. but they have to be about openness and ideas. otherwise i am very unhappy. sigh. see how life works?

ok too many thoughts have left my mind without transferring onto the page. time for me to go now...

im unhappy again :(