emo

[the_olaf]

do you ever feel like your heart is bleeding? like you fucking need to change your shirt before someone notices the bloodstains on your chest. I can't get no rest. trust and faith and all the rest have gone west and sunk into the sound, made deeper this night by the tears I've found rolling down my face. I yelled so loud in my car, all by myself, that I though my throat was bleeding. I feel like I've given a mile, and when I ask for an inch back it's a joke. I fucking try, I make sacrifices, but the selfishness, the lust, the thoughtlessness, the what ever... what ever it is, I can't understand it, but I know it is greater than what ever love and respect there is for me, as least in that moment. I don't ask for much. Maybe that's why I'm not getting much. I'm so fucking worked up right now I don't know how I'm going to fall asleep.

No communication for three weeks. I need to be disciplined. I don't know what's gonna happen in three weeks, but what's happening now NEEDS to stop.