Meaning
Geez. I hate being emotional. But with the line up of shows, I can't help it. Apop in Phoenix, VNV Nation in Cali...
Two bands that made me feel. Especially VNV Nation. When I had the miscarriage, VNV Nation's music helped me deal. In a time when even my husband at the time couldn't help, VNV was there. Maybe it's silly. But the lyrics spoke to me. Helped me mourn. Because he never did.
We saw VNV shortly after I miscarried. He yelled out for them to play Saviour. The song I loved most of all. They played it. I danced and cried. People looked at me as though I was insane. I didn't care. Saviour was what my lost child was to me. The person that made me understand that there was more to life than my selfishness. I don't know how to explain it. But VNV made my emotions ok.
They move me to tears even now. I want to see them again. Want to feel that release. Isn't it amazing how music can make things seem better? Am I ridiculous?
Two bands that made me feel. Especially VNV Nation. When I had the miscarriage, VNV Nation's music helped me deal. In a time when even my husband at the time couldn't help, VNV was there. Maybe it's silly. But the lyrics spoke to me. Helped me mourn. Because he never did.
We saw VNV shortly after I miscarried. He yelled out for them to play Saviour. The song I loved most of all. They played it. I danced and cried. People looked at me as though I was insane. I didn't care. Saviour was what my lost child was to me. The person that made me understand that there was more to life than my selfishness. I don't know how to explain it. But VNV made my emotions ok.
They move me to tears even now. I want to see them again. Want to feel that release. Isn't it amazing how music can make things seem better? Am I ridiculous?