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ok...so again i have to post somthing dealing with some type of emotion.
so here it is
why is it that i fuck everything up? every chance i get to do somthing that might make me somewhat happy, i go and mess it up whether it is my fault or not. i want a girl, but i cant have her because i have feelings that will never disappear for another. i really wish this had never happened. but there is another problem. one of them wants to wait a while, and the other one wants to wait also. so that leaves me not knowing my own fate. but oh well. i brought this on myself and i have to figure it out. i think posting this kind of stuff is helping me, because i usually keep this bottled up. but now leting it out feels kinda good. my dad found an old ass bottle of pills under my bed that was empty so now he thinks im addicted. but the up side of that is that hes letting me do more because he thinks its because im alone too often. hes not grounding me as much now. so yeah i guess im doing good.
i love you
so here it is
why is it that i fuck everything up? every chance i get to do somthing that might make me somewhat happy, i go and mess it up whether it is my fault or not. i want a girl, but i cant have her because i have feelings that will never disappear for another. i really wish this had never happened. but there is another problem. one of them wants to wait a while, and the other one wants to wait also. so that leaves me not knowing my own fate. but oh well. i brought this on myself and i have to figure it out. i think posting this kind of stuff is helping me, because i usually keep this bottled up. but now leting it out feels kinda good. my dad found an old ass bottle of pills under my bed that was empty so now he thinks im addicted. but the up side of that is that hes letting me do more because he thinks its because im alone too often. hes not grounding me as much now. so yeah i guess im doing good.
i love you