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I AM HAPPY!!
Something just snapped, it did. I'm not stressed about school, about work, or...and this is hard to admit...about relationships.
So I went out last night. And it was awesome. And I danced 'til 2am...and made it to my 9am class. And handed in two assignments.
I saw an awesome amazing orgasmic DJ, drank beer, caught up with friends, and was nicely, decently flirted with. Not sleazily, which I've been getting lately. But nicely. Like when a guy asks me what I study at school and tells me that one of the most rewarding class he took was a full year Shakespeare class. And goes on and on about the DJ's amazing use of the drum machine. It was nice, really nice. I may just go to the same bar next week, 'cause he'll be there, and he asked me if I was going. I need the ego boost right now. I really do. 'Course I won't DO anything about the cute guy flirting, but....it's nice to get some positive male attention. I miss Marcus. AND it's the LCD System CD release party next week!! I think I shall go.
AND I'M HAPPY!!
I've just stopped worrying...and it's such a relief...not worrying about school, about money, about family, about being in a long-distance relationship...fuck it, I'm just going to be myself. And if that doesn't fit with any of my 'plans', well....that's the way it's going to be.
God I feel good.
Something just snapped, it did. I'm not stressed about school, about work, or...and this is hard to admit...about relationships.
So I went out last night. And it was awesome. And I danced 'til 2am...and made it to my 9am class. And handed in two assignments.
I saw an awesome amazing orgasmic DJ, drank beer, caught up with friends, and was nicely, decently flirted with. Not sleazily, which I've been getting lately. But nicely. Like when a guy asks me what I study at school and tells me that one of the most rewarding class he took was a full year Shakespeare class. And goes on and on about the DJ's amazing use of the drum machine. It was nice, really nice. I may just go to the same bar next week, 'cause he'll be there, and he asked me if I was going. I need the ego boost right now. I really do. 'Course I won't DO anything about the cute guy flirting, but....it's nice to get some positive male attention. I miss Marcus. AND it's the LCD System CD release party next week!! I think I shall go.
AND I'M HAPPY!!
I've just stopped worrying...and it's such a relief...not worrying about school, about money, about family, about being in a long-distance relationship...fuck it, I'm just going to be myself. And if that doesn't fit with any of my 'plans', well....that's the way it's going to be.
God I feel good.