Questions without answers...
Am I dangerous? When Satan looks out over the earth to see those he can test to see if they trust God (like Job), do I pop up on his screen?
Do I really seek God passionately, or am I just afraid of the consequences of not seeking Him?
Do I serve because I want others to know Christ, or because I want other Christians to see me serving?
Am I focused on the campers, or on the staff?
Am I focused on the staff seeing me with campers and being effective, or do I really just want to hear God's voice in how to minister?
Am I desensitized to God's voice?
When will I ever be able to pray for a long time without my mind being distracted?
When will I learn how to pray?
When will I stop falling asleep in the morning, instead of awaking and craving to hear from God?
What will it take for me to start loving people and Christ's love to flow out of me naturally?
Will I ever lead anyone to God?
Am I effective for the kingdom, or am I crippled by my sin?
When will I ever be in a place where everyone can know my screw-ups and not be judgemental, but love with the love of Christ?
When will repentance be fully understood-- in other people but most importantly in my life.
What does it mean to go "outside the camp?"
Are lost people drawn to me?
What do I have to do to stop living in my Christian bubble?
Do I practice the self-centered Christianity that I hate?
When will I feel free from sin, instead of just proclaiming something I don't feel is real?
Are my motives for God or for self?
Do I do a good job to come back next year at Student Life or to show people God's love?
Am I as mature as I think I am?
What does God want from me next year? next fall? next month? next week? tomorrow? tonight?
How do I find God's will for my life?
How do I find peace with not knowing where I am going?
When will the eternal, everlasting, abundant life of Christ Jesus reign in my flesh, instead of my sin nature?
And how does that happen?
Do I really want to lay it all down for God?
What is my real spiritual gift, my real calling, my real personality?
Can I accept who I am? Who am I really in Christ?
Can I just simply seek out the Lord? Will He really respond?
Do I really seek God passionately, or am I just afraid of the consequences of not seeking Him?
Do I serve because I want others to know Christ, or because I want other Christians to see me serving?
Am I focused on the campers, or on the staff?
Am I focused on the staff seeing me with campers and being effective, or do I really just want to hear God's voice in how to minister?
Am I desensitized to God's voice?
When will I ever be able to pray for a long time without my mind being distracted?
When will I learn how to pray?
When will I stop falling asleep in the morning, instead of awaking and craving to hear from God?
What will it take for me to start loving people and Christ's love to flow out of me naturally?
Will I ever lead anyone to God?
Am I effective for the kingdom, or am I crippled by my sin?
When will I ever be in a place where everyone can know my screw-ups and not be judgemental, but love with the love of Christ?
When will repentance be fully understood-- in other people but most importantly in my life.
What does it mean to go "outside the camp?"
Are lost people drawn to me?
What do I have to do to stop living in my Christian bubble?
Do I practice the self-centered Christianity that I hate?
When will I feel free from sin, instead of just proclaiming something I don't feel is real?
Are my motives for God or for self?
Do I do a good job to come back next year at Student Life or to show people God's love?
Am I as mature as I think I am?
What does God want from me next year? next fall? next month? next week? tomorrow? tonight?
How do I find God's will for my life?
How do I find peace with not knowing where I am going?
When will the eternal, everlasting, abundant life of Christ Jesus reign in my flesh, instead of my sin nature?
And how does that happen?
Do I really want to lay it all down for God?
What is my real spiritual gift, my real calling, my real personality?
Can I accept who I am? Who am I really in Christ?
Can I just simply seek out the Lord? Will He really respond?