writing is...

Apr 01, 2011 10:42

- I signed up for deancasbigbang . I'm excited.  It'll be good to write something completely for fun and not worry about being graded or judged on an academic level.  I'm most likely doing my SPN/Inception crossover idea, because I'm still excited for that, but we'll see.  I might also need a beta, but... I'll worry about that in a bit :P

- I saw talked to my professor last night, the prof that's my chair for my thesis.  And I'm not longer completely excited to write my thesis.  Okay, so I already have doubts about my thesis in general.  And then to have him be like "Oh, ok," when I asked him to sign the form like he didn't know or forgot I was his thesis student, and then to have him ask, "So you're doing a collection of short stories?" when my thesis proposal was for a novel... well, hello.  Now I feel like he didn't choose me at all, but I got shoved off on him because he wasn't there at the deciding meeting or something.  So well, shit.  And then he says, "A novel's a big undertaking for a thesis..." and I'm like "No shit, dude."  It's a fucking novel, of course it's gonna be hard.  But, well... fuck me, that's what my writing's always tended toward.

So now I'm not excited anymore, and worrying about whether I'm writing the right thing for my thesis and chose the right thesis director.  I'm fucked, basically.  That's what it boils down to.

- I'm so ready for a vacation. (I can't even say summer, because I'm taking a summer course.)

- My fellow MFA student here in this house and I have decided to whore out our writing in order to pay for the rest of grad school.  Our school upped our tuition, so 1 credit is over $1,000 now.  And part of her internship has been working on an erotica site (she works for a company that helps with search engines, so she has to plug in words that people will search for in a google search and make sure that the site she's put in charge of will pop up on that first search results page, if that makes any sense).

So, anyway, romance novels and erotica.  It's fast writing, not necessarily great quality, and for punching out a romance novel you can make a decent amount of money.  And for us, who are in MFA programs and are required to write so much so fast, and at such "high quality," we're thinking we can punch out a romance novel over the course of the summer.  And it will help pay for grad school.  I already have my pen name ready, so I'm thinking this is gonna be how I pay for my thesis semester.

Yay for MFA programs making it necessary to write trash in order to attend said MFA programs.

This whole system is fucked up.

- Writing... psh, can't live with it, definitely can't live without it.  No wonder most writers are alcoholics and/or druggies. 

whoring out skillz, life as a grad student, grad thesis, fuck my life, writing, why i should be in bed

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