there is no turning back from this .
i had to go to the bank today .
i saw Sex God walk in in front of me . A Revelation . i dont lust after him , i dont even like him . my attraction to him was based on rumors of what he could make me feel , of what he could make my body do .
i had to pick up a few things for the demon formerly known as my "mother" . of course , i mess up . after three , count them , three walks of shame , i was permitted to get back in the car . then i was shouted at for five minutes , and she started crying , and i laughed in her face. bad move . my cell phone , the one that i PAY FOR MYSELF WITH MONEY I BUST MY ASS FOR was confiscated . so now im here , in my room .
i like to pretend that im this hard person , when really , all the little things that happen through the day rush to mind in the night .
is it so hard to find someone to care for , someone who would care for me back ?
and how horrid , i've gone and drank my entire stash of The Good Shit .
i saw Sex God walk in in front of me . A Revelation . i dont lust after him , i dont even like him . my attraction to him was based on rumors of what he could make me feel , of what he could make my body do .
i had to pick up a few things for the demon formerly known as my "mother" . of course , i mess up . after three , count them , three walks of shame , i was permitted to get back in the car . then i was shouted at for five minutes , and she started crying , and i laughed in her face. bad move . my cell phone , the one that i PAY FOR MYSELF WITH MONEY I BUST MY ASS FOR was confiscated . so now im here , in my room .
i like to pretend that im this hard person , when really , all the little things that happen through the day rush to mind in the night .
is it so hard to find someone to care for , someone who would care for me back ?
and how horrid , i've gone and drank my entire stash of The Good Shit .