Is it really supposed to be this way?

[the_narrowhouse]

I suppose I'll always keep hope. I don't know why I do. I always create the perfect idea of what I think it should be like. The real world doesn't coincide with your thoughts. The real world takes your ideas, your dreams, your hope, and crushes it. It's a repeating cycle that always occurs. You build hope up until you're almost bursting with anticipation, then just like last time and the time before, the real world obliterates all traces of hope. But somehow little by little the hope returns, until you realize you're back where you were before you took the fall, before the real world took all your hope away. Each time it feels like it hurts less and less. Does that mean each cycle you're hope is diminished little by little, until the end you have no hope. Can you lose hope? Is it possible to lose all hope?

Is it really real hope? I need to replace this false hope with something real. Jesus is the only real hope. I need to place all trust and hope in Him. Without Him I am nothing.

I suppose I'm overreacting. I suppose I need to get a life. I just hate how every time I hope, my hope gets destroyed. Whatever, I'm done with this shit. I'm going to end up losing friends over this, but I don't care...