i can feel a change.
so last night was mary's 16th birthday party.
it was nice to see everyone, and to find out whats new in everyone's lives.
but at the same time it was so so strange.
because being at an SCA party made me think about how much i have changed, and how much my surroundings have changed.
last year, if i knew of someone that was drinking or smoking or something along those lines, i would have completely
flipped out. This year i've been to countless pplaces where people are compeltely trashed and high.
Saturday night i had to go to my friend's house at one o'clock to take care of him. He was drunk, high and had taken 7 painkillers.
all because of the fact that he was trying to run away from his problems, and be numb for a night.
it makes me worried how used to things like that i have become. I wonder if it is just me, or if thats how everyone gets over time. i don't know if its a good thing to become used to such things, or if its a bad thing.
i have changed so much over the past year and a half, and after taking numerous looks at myself, i'm not sure if i like what i am changing into.
i'm getting ripped apart by people at school.
i'm losing all confidence, and all sense of self.
i'm so torn between who i am and who i want to be.
help.
it was nice to see everyone, and to find out whats new in everyone's lives.
but at the same time it was so so strange.
because being at an SCA party made me think about how much i have changed, and how much my surroundings have changed.
last year, if i knew of someone that was drinking or smoking or something along those lines, i would have completely
flipped out. This year i've been to countless pplaces where people are compeltely trashed and high.
Saturday night i had to go to my friend's house at one o'clock to take care of him. He was drunk, high and had taken 7 painkillers.
all because of the fact that he was trying to run away from his problems, and be numb for a night.
it makes me worried how used to things like that i have become. I wonder if it is just me, or if thats how everyone gets over time. i don't know if its a good thing to become used to such things, or if its a bad thing.
i have changed so much over the past year and a half, and after taking numerous looks at myself, i'm not sure if i like what i am changing into.
i'm getting ripped apart by people at school.
i'm losing all confidence, and all sense of self.
i'm so torn between who i am and who i want to be.
help.