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[the_murder]

here it goes again...i dunno whats the matter with me....i got into a fight with Brittney again. i think our friendship is really over now. i kinda hope it is to. (i'm glade you finally realized everything i have been trying to tell you for so long...i mean about how i'm a bigger problem then i'm worth, and how much i have fucked things up for you

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[daytime_dreamr4]

Don't change too much!! I like you because you are strange. If you try to act too normal then you will hurt yourself because you will be squashing the real you down and it will drive you insane and then you will hurt everyone who loves you bc you are yourself and you don't give a fuck what other people think. And everything shitty that happens isn't just your fault. It can be part of your fault, but not just you. It's not like we are all perfect people and you come in and fuck our lives up! Usually there wasn't something right to begin with. I'll tell you something that you did that was right. You taught me what loyalty was. I know me, Leah, and Laura treated you like shit somedays when we were younger but you always forgave us. When I realized you stayed loyal as a friend to me I tried to do the same. I'm not sure I did a great job at it but you have no idea how horrible I feel to this day for what I did when I was little. I should have stood up for you but I was a little chicken shit when I was little. I guess other people can be blamed for me being the way I was, but that isn't a good excuse. Another thing was that you always encouraged me to not care what other people think of me. It took years for me to do that, but now I know how I shouldn't care what other people think of me. It's not like they are so fucking perfect they can judge me. I have to do what I think is right. I know now what a valuable friend you've been to me. I just wanted you to know.

[the_murder]

I LOVE YOU CHRYSTAL!!! i know that we had an odd friendship growing up. but now that we are older i htnk we realized more how much we cherish our friendship. you have no idea how happy you made me. i never thought you looked up to me like that, and i feel all great about it. I'm always here to talk. i hope things get better for you.

Moe