And I thought agency was supposed to be a good thing

[the_momo]

Debate is really starting to become a hassle. At the Reno high tournament I didn't break because of a judge error combined w/ the fact that I was partnered w/ CJ. I don't know I guess I felt sorry for him, because as soon as Robert couldn't do TT he assumed we were partners. It's just like I didn't expect him to get 5,6,and 7 points lower than me in rounds. It's like I got 3rd in speaker points, more than Mike, Nora, or Stacey. Yet still we don't break! Why because a judge can't add 4+4+4+4+4+2! Obviously they thought it equaled 26. No one in the tab room thought to question a number greater than perfect speaks for a round and as a result we sucked. I honestly don't know what to do w/ debate right now. I want to go to nats so bad after watching all my friends go as novices last year. and honestly I don't think I have a shot in LD. So that leaves going to nats in TT and as much as TT is terrible debate I would still be a good shot of going to nats. Sadly two TT teams have cemented spots already and the likelyhood of Foster taking a third team when we already domintate TT is little to none. So my only hope at going to nats at this point is that 1.) I break at every freaking tournament this year in extemp and some how manage a top two at districts or 2.) Ciera decides that she wants to do an interp at nats and doesn't enter in TT. The likelyhood of either of these again is also very small. So it comes down to this: I go to semis at SCU or after the third tournament of the year I'm already out of contention for postseason play. and I'll be honest when you know you're not going to state, nats, and more than likely districts debate begins to suck!

Honestly I don't know what to do anymore. Debate is just starting to become depressing watching everyone around me succeed while I pathetically fail.