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[the_misty_haze]

It's been a long time since I've been on here. I'm so busy I hardly even have time to come on the computer anymore and if I am Ross wants to sit on my lap and push all the buttons. He is getting so big a year and half old now walking and talking and into everything. He makes me smile. Makes me feel good inside. I can't believe that in less then three months I will have another son. I am really kind of scared by it. I am very excited about the baby but it's scary to imagine having another when Ross is so young still and I remember too freshly what having a newborn is like. Plus Ross is still in our room at night still needs so much nigtime reassurence that he is not alone. How is that going to work when we have a newborn in a bassinet by the bed? Everytime he crys it'll wake Ross up. He needs to move to his own room but he screams and screams and I can't stand for him to be unhappy. I'm a weak mom I know that. I'm kindof ashamed I let it get to this point. I still have so much to do to get ready for Erick to come. So much cleaning and sorting out Ross's old things but I am so tired all the time and it feels like Between Dan and Ross I am losing the clean battle . Dan pisses me off he never can be bothered to do the dishes or use the vac. And if by some slim chance he does do some dishes it's never all of them just a few. At this point I think I'd be happy if cans and bottles made there way into the returnable bag and dirty dishes made there way to the god damn sink. Not to mention clothes in the hamper and not strewn across the floor. But thats a whole other rant. And it'll never happen I remember what his bedroom at hios parents used to look like. I still am not sure if that room has carpet or hardwood floors. I still have tons of shit that needs to be moved in the house from my parents too. Dads been riding my ass to get it out. Theres too much to do.
I got sent home sick from work as soon as Susan came in this morning and heard me talk. I feel like I have broncitus or someting. I probably should be in bed but I'm so uncomfortably pregnant I can't sleep. It's kindof funny.