Nothing Happened!
Nothing happened. It was tuesday night (11/12) and we were hanging out and things didn't go bad. It is a big thing to me but not really to most anyone else. I stopped things once or twice, and so did she; and that fact, that it was by both of us, makes me almost as happy as the very fact that it was done in the first place. I did everything I could, but leaving was still too much for me. So instead I did nothing, and she ended up staying over all night when she fell asleep, and then I dozed off too. After we both woke up things got really bad, but this time she stopped things. I could tell how hard it was for her, but she still did it. Instead we ended up talking. It was nice, a lot of important things were said and I learned a lot. I think the fact that we were able to talk so openly despite things not progressing was another good think to know and to reconfirm for my own peace of mind. We managed to go over the set period of time (the time for the entire cycle of the physical act) and, while things have lost their momentum, the relationship itself and mutual concern still remains strong. That was another thing that I really needed to know. The results made it easier yesturday, another good thing that was expected but hadn't happened yet before. It all is so good, I wish I could talk about it more with others. But, yeah, I can't; so I post it here. That is what I do, I guess.