Boo!
I say "boo" not in so much to celebrate Halloween (which isn't as fun since I've become too old to trick-or-treat *sigh*), but basically to pop my head out of the woodwork.
Basically, I feel like I have become a shut-in the last couple of months or so. Mostly due to work - because of added responsibilities for my department, and a seemingly never ending parade of mostly minor crises, I probably haven't had an 8 hour day since August. And I'm working a job that's in salary again, so I'm not getting paid for any of my extra hours - but I knew that before I took this job so I can't really complain. In any case, I'm stressed at work really for the first time in quite a while, and I think my body has forgotten how to deal with it constructively. And it seems to be only heightened by the fact since I start work so early (7am...and I am *not* a morning person) and since the seasons are changing, I am going to work when it is dark out, and coming home when the sun is setting - which really fucks my body clock up.
So yes, I deal with this by basically being a slug - I don't want to leave the house, I just want to watch TV and do completely mindless things and become totally anti-social. Which at this point probably leaves me with a bunch of friends who are pondering whether I still exist because I haven't (and don't particularly want to) called or emailed anyone really in quite awhile. I feel like I spend most of the week waiting for the weekend, and then spend most of the weekend doing things like cleaning and running errands I was too lazy to do during the week. Is this what an adult is supposed to be like? If so, please send me back to 1984...I'd appreciate it.
I just really need to *not* be lazy and force myself to do something constructive even if it is something like watching a DVD or reading a book. I think the toll of not haven't seen a therapist in nearly a year might be starting to wear on me a bit - for not only the reasons I've mentioned but I've noticed an increase in negative "self-talk" so to speak lately, which was something I worked on consistently in therapy. My weekly yoga classes seem to help a bit with this, but of course this week I hit the off button on my alarm and slept through it *sigh*
So I'm going to really try this week to be more productive and see if that makes me feel better. Hum.
Other than that, really not too much has been happening with me. I went out for Indian food and bowling with Amy last night for a "date night." I really want to do more of that in the future because I know when I get into slug mode it annoys Amy and influences her to be sluggish too.
I think I shall go to the library tomorrow. I haven't really read a good book since Harry Potter. I want to read the Philip Pullman Trilogy before the films come out. I seem to always delay reading classic sci-fi series until right before they make it into the movie.
And on that note I shall get up shortly and do dishes. Amy's at Target...what's a girl to do? ;)
Basically, I feel like I have become a shut-in the last couple of months or so. Mostly due to work - because of added responsibilities for my department, and a seemingly never ending parade of mostly minor crises, I probably haven't had an 8 hour day since August. And I'm working a job that's in salary again, so I'm not getting paid for any of my extra hours - but I knew that before I took this job so I can't really complain. In any case, I'm stressed at work really for the first time in quite a while, and I think my body has forgotten how to deal with it constructively. And it seems to be only heightened by the fact since I start work so early (7am...and I am *not* a morning person) and since the seasons are changing, I am going to work when it is dark out, and coming home when the sun is setting - which really fucks my body clock up.
So yes, I deal with this by basically being a slug - I don't want to leave the house, I just want to watch TV and do completely mindless things and become totally anti-social. Which at this point probably leaves me with a bunch of friends who are pondering whether I still exist because I haven't (and don't particularly want to) called or emailed anyone really in quite awhile. I feel like I spend most of the week waiting for the weekend, and then spend most of the weekend doing things like cleaning and running errands I was too lazy to do during the week. Is this what an adult is supposed to be like? If so, please send me back to 1984...I'd appreciate it.
I just really need to *not* be lazy and force myself to do something constructive even if it is something like watching a DVD or reading a book. I think the toll of not haven't seen a therapist in nearly a year might be starting to wear on me a bit - for not only the reasons I've mentioned but I've noticed an increase in negative "self-talk" so to speak lately, which was something I worked on consistently in therapy. My weekly yoga classes seem to help a bit with this, but of course this week I hit the off button on my alarm and slept through it *sigh*
So I'm going to really try this week to be more productive and see if that makes me feel better. Hum.
Other than that, really not too much has been happening with me. I went out for Indian food and bowling with Amy last night for a "date night." I really want to do more of that in the future because I know when I get into slug mode it annoys Amy and influences her to be sluggish too.
I think I shall go to the library tomorrow. I haven't really read a good book since Harry Potter. I want to read the Philip Pullman Trilogy before the films come out. I seem to always delay reading classic sci-fi series until right before they make it into the movie.
And on that note I shall get up shortly and do dishes. Amy's at Target...what's a girl to do? ;)