Recapping
So I'm sitting here on my day off and working on my story...editing out the stuff out grammatically and it turns out I didn't do too bad on it. However, I'm reading the story and realizing "damn, it takes forever to get to the good stuff", in a sense. So I'm trying to speed up the plot process and try to not make the story as wordy (although I want to be within specific word count requirements), writing a fantasy/sci-fi novel is hard, man!
Moving on, from watching a lot of my older matches, I realized what my problem is...I rarely communicate, a lot of things I do be off the fly because I see myself as a "clip wrestler" or "spot monkey"...y'know, someone that's only good for "clips" of somewhat decent moves in MV's or someone that works well in spots. I don't really have a lot of confidence in myself in one-on-one matches because I'm so used to knowing a lot about the other guy that I expect them to actually "study" me as much as I "study" them. Sometimes that's not the case, and then the match starts and it ends up being a disaster (not all the time, but you see where I'm going with this). So what I plan to do is simple...practice moves, practice spots and improve on my communication. Can you believe I learned that all on my own? Also, on the subject of wrestling. My legs are better, I just walk with a small hobble that doesn't hinder me from doing much (learned that at work) but now I got another problem and that's my money. I don't have money to go from state to state (granted, the bus is not expensive, I have to miss almost a week of work in order to get to the MidWest where I'm usually invited and that doesn't look good on my following check). So as soon as I get my finances straightened out completely, I do plan to do supershows and stuff again, but not a moment sooner. In the meantime though, I will be inviting the guys I wrestle with (in the inset next to this entry) to supershows and such just so they can get some kind of recognition, those guys are a HECK of a lot better than I am, and they deserve a little more (despite this being backyard wrestling where, in a sense, more is less). Oh and one more thing, is it just me or is Lil Wayne featured in a couple of Wrestlemania songs now ("Let it Rock" by Kevin Rudolph, "I made it" by Cash Money Heroes)...can you say Lil Wayne as future guest host of RAW (because we all know that he's not going to be in jail for that long, either that or the day he gets out, it'd be almost as if he didn't go to jail to begin with).
Moving on to Anime stuff, I'm going to Mechacon VI and LouisiANIME 2010 (in that order), since they are both local, I don't have to spend much as far as distance goes and I'm probably not even getting a room for LouisiANIME since it's like...right smack dab at home. I'm considering cosplaying as Trafalgar Law (as mentioned in past entries) just because, he's so simple and as far as first time cosplaying goes, I think I look enough like him to cosplay as him and look just as cool, I hate this farmer tan I got though because me and him would have been the same shade of brown if I didn't work out in the heat for this long. The one thing I'm going to be skeptical about though are the tattoos and I gotta find out how to get those spots on the knees and ankles. Then I gotta get some fake earrings since I refuse to pierce or tatt any part of my body. It's all about the money in the end though, but it shouldn't be too expensive to cosplay as him since (compared to all the other characters on One Piece), he's quite normally dressed and also, I think that I'm like him personally. Laid back, blunt, kinda dickish when needs be...I can't say that I am Trafalgar Law, but if I could be any manga character, it'd have to be him (for now). Sh-t, speaking of Manga, I gotta catch up on some En Passant, Bleach, Naruto, One Piece, Otaku No Musume and Yureka...Note to self: Bookmark OneManga whenever.
So I'm going back to my "learning" phase and re-learning everything I can about HTML and basic website creation on W3Schools. Well that and the other languages like French, German and Spanish, to name a few languages. I remember talking to some of my friends from other countries and they say that in Europe, it's like damn near mandatory that you learn other languages...and I realized that unless you're a hot chick in high school (who can study as much as she wants because she don't have to worry about getting a boyfriend since the market is open for her), or the biggest smart person you know, or living in California, you most likely can barely speak English well. Yes, I know, I'm stereotyping but that's because I haven't been proven wrong yet...I haven't seen one dumb teenybopper chick that all the other guys deem "the most attractive" and California gets masturbated on so much...*scoff* California. That's just my inner nationalist talking (I feel like Baton Rouge, Louisiana should be given just as much TLC as New Orleans).
As far as the website that I'm working on (ThirtytoTen.com) is concerned, I'm working on exactly what it's going to be about. I don't want to make a site strictly about Me as a person because in the real world, I'm quite boring (at least until I get my car) and I deem to stay to myself a lot. I don't want to have a site saying every few minutes "just sitting here...". Although I do plan to start a Rant series one of these days just to shake things up. Before I make ThirtytoTen, I'm working on a website about Team LouisiANIME which is a newscast about the Louisiana Otaku scene complete with tete-a-tete's with some of Louisiana's artists (anime and non anime related), some anime and manga reviews and rants, pretty much something for the Otaku down here to work on while they are waiting for the next con. So I have two web projects that I'm working on at the moment. TeamLouisiANIME and ThirtytoTen.
Onward to Life, I'm working on my license still (laugh as much as you want, I don't have money to get my car fixed and I'll be damned if I drive around in my broke ass car) and my friend, Misty (censored her name), has been helping me out with it a lot. I still gotta get the hang of going in reverse and turning and sh-t but as far as driving goes (like going forward and staying forward :P), that I can do. I can also bag out but I just need to be confident that I can do that a lot more. Confidence is weird, when I have it, I feel I can do anything and then I see someone outdo me and then all that confidence like goes away...and it's not like a gradual fall, it's like *PWND* "You suck, Manny...go die in a fire" and then I get more depressed because I can't buy lighter fluid. In any case, my confidence is slowly getting better since I'm more to myself now and I have time to work on myself without encountering people that are better than I am and having that "you suck, Manny" feeling. Speaking of working on myself, I'm working out a lot more...I do simple stuff mostly after I wake up and before I go to sleep, we talking 50 pushups (diamonded when I wake up and armspread before I go to sleep), 60-70 ground touching squats and whenever I feel like it, I do like sixty situps but that's only when I feel like looking for something to anchor my feet down with. I'm not aiming for a dream body, to be honest, I want to be stronger and be able to lift my own body without having to strain. In any case, money is looking good right now, next summer I should be pretty damn set, in the meantime, I'll just be helping out my friends, working on my job, my sites, my languages, my body and sh-t...kinda weird, I'm a loser but I'm busy with sh-t.
I guess I'm not as much of a loser as I think I am