Meh, the beat goes on...
I really need to start writing about good things that happen to me in here once in a while.
Welp, today, I tried my hand (again) at Stand Up Comedy...I tanked.
I mean, I think I started off well but then I lost my way and realized that trying to be Chris Titus was probably not the best way to go.
In short, I got heckled after my bit about the Civil War charging America it's first billion for killing each other...to a bunch of people that don't know dick about history...as my opener.
I should have just stuck to the virgin jokes.
I mean, I'm not too bothered by it since I knew I was gonna get a bad reaction, I just didn't expect an actual booing session.
Stuff like that made me really look back at my life and realize I never actually succeeded in anything...which I'd be okay with if I didn't have this drive to compete and lose to fucking everyone every day.
Jeez, how does Jerry do it? I just got finished talking to him and he brings up some good points that I really need to consider but I'm just too frustrated about it.
I mean, okay, I compare myself to other but the common thing about life has always been "take risks" and I hate it seems like when I do it, I get the short end of the stick when everyone else just fucking wins (or at least not lose) while I'm stuck wondering where's my good thing I tried working for.
I mean, why is it so easy for them to get what they want and not me? In 140 characters on twitter some no-name can get worldwide recognition and people fucking love that person for it but if I do it..meh.
I understand I'm not likable enough for a mate, smart enough to be a writer, physically correct enough to be an actor, rich enough to be anything or well read enough to even be a librarian but the question is pretty fucking simple, am I doing this "life" thing right if I have ask what's the point of it?
Also, anyone need a professional failure?