I Feel a Change, But I Don't Know What It Is...
Today started out like almost any other day. I got a message from Zhanae in the middle of the night about the Kats disbanding while I was sleeping, so I called her back. While we were talking, I told her that I thought God was trying to tell me something. After telling her this, I said, "I think I should go to church today."
Now this was a pretty big deal for me. I haven't been to church, of any denomination, for almost four years. Which means I haven't gone since the days when my biological mom forced me to go to Catholic mass with her. Something about it left a bad taste in my mouth, hence my hiatus.
Upon hearing me say this, Zhanae immediately asked me to go with her to her church today. I did, and at first I was extremely nervous, and I told her so. All the men were in suits or shirts and ties, and I was wearing my normal outfit, Chuck Taylors and all. But as soon as I came in, Z's friend Natalie introduced herself and spoke to me as if we knew each other beforehand. Pretty soon, almost everyone, including one of the members of the stake presidency, came and introduced themselves to me.
But what really affected me was the sermon, and what it told me.
Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for yourselves. For my yoke is easy, and my burden light.
(Matthew 11:28-30)
This stuck out in my mind, and the passage, and everything that sprang forth from it in the service today, gave me the sense that God was, and is, trying to tell me something. I'm still trying to figure it out, but I'm almost getting chills thinking about it now. Even Zhanae told me, "Wow, that was incredible! It's like everything that was said was like a message to you from God." I think it means I should give myself over and wait for the answer.
Something tells me I may be on the right track. I'm not sure yet, but I think it may have something to do with my music. We'll see...
Now this was a pretty big deal for me. I haven't been to church, of any denomination, for almost four years. Which means I haven't gone since the days when my biological mom forced me to go to Catholic mass with her. Something about it left a bad taste in my mouth, hence my hiatus.
Upon hearing me say this, Zhanae immediately asked me to go with her to her church today. I did, and at first I was extremely nervous, and I told her so. All the men were in suits or shirts and ties, and I was wearing my normal outfit, Chuck Taylors and all. But as soon as I came in, Z's friend Natalie introduced herself and spoke to me as if we knew each other beforehand. Pretty soon, almost everyone, including one of the members of the stake presidency, came and introduced themselves to me.
But what really affected me was the sermon, and what it told me.
Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for yourselves. For my yoke is easy, and my burden light.
(Matthew 11:28-30)
This stuck out in my mind, and the passage, and everything that sprang forth from it in the service today, gave me the sense that God was, and is, trying to tell me something. I'm still trying to figure it out, but I'm almost getting chills thinking about it now. Even Zhanae told me, "Wow, that was incredible! It's like everything that was said was like a message to you from God." I think it means I should give myself over and wait for the answer.
Something tells me I may be on the right track. I'm not sure yet, but I think it may have something to do with my music. We'll see...