'why do you wear that silly bunny suit?'......'why are you wearing that silly man suit?'.....
so today i layed in til 11am. it was so nice. just to lie there dead to the world. my room is so nice. it is freezing cold and i always have cold toes and fingers, even a cold nose, but all this means is i get to slide into bed and snuggle up to my duvet in a foetal position and listen to whatever CD is in my player and drift away for the few hours left before i have to be up and prepared for another day. ah sleep, is there anything better than sleep? my view on death is it is one big dream, and how you've lived your life depends on what kind of dream you will have. bad life = nightmare, good life = happy dream. i myself hope to dream of all the things that made me happy in life and to be honest, there are a lot of things that have made me happy. oh no, dont be fooled by this terrible teenage angst my dear eljay readers, there is an awful lot of happyness underneath this troubled and confused teenager. it just is overwhelmed and sent to the back of my, to be honest, fucked up mind.
i think one of my fish is dying....
so i went to college again, in film i just watched the first hour of Se7en. such a bonerific film. then it was lunch time. do you ever feel like you dont belong in your friendship group? thats how i feel at the moment. its like, they are too intelligent for me, now dont get me wrong, i think i can say this without sounding big headed but i am not stupid, in an intellectual way i mean, but they are just so gay and clever and i never understand what they are on about. so today i went to the library and got a book out and read it on the field by myself. it was a bit cold, but i had a hoody, a scarf and my killa koat. i look the bee's knee's in that thing :/ it wasnt a very interesting book. was about vampires and how when they made 'Nosferatu' (the 1st vampire film) they thought the guy playing Count Orlok (the vampire) was a real vampire. apparently John Malchovich made a film about it. anyway, it was just nice to have some of one's own company for a while. then i went to english but only til 3pm, as i had to go to work, the bastards....
that fish is definately dead....
yeha so worked from 5pm til 8pm with this new girl on shoes. she is such a a pikey and only 16 years old. she thought i was 23! 23 i ask you, i do not look that old. stupid pikey. then she had the cheek to get me to ring through her first ever account and she took the credit for it. such a pikey. i fucking hate pikeys....
got home and did some work then watched Donnie Darko. love that film. and Freya wants to read my eljay before she goes to bed so i better stop now and go to bed myself as i love it there, jsut its hard to get there....need to be up at 7:15am too.
just re-read my eljay...so melancholy....you'd think i was dying or something....
i think one of my fish is dying....
so i went to college again, in film i just watched the first hour of Se7en. such a bonerific film. then it was lunch time. do you ever feel like you dont belong in your friendship group? thats how i feel at the moment. its like, they are too intelligent for me, now dont get me wrong, i think i can say this without sounding big headed but i am not stupid, in an intellectual way i mean, but they are just so gay and clever and i never understand what they are on about. so today i went to the library and got a book out and read it on the field by myself. it was a bit cold, but i had a hoody, a scarf and my killa koat. i look the bee's knee's in that thing :/ it wasnt a very interesting book. was about vampires and how when they made 'Nosferatu' (the 1st vampire film) they thought the guy playing Count Orlok (the vampire) was a real vampire. apparently John Malchovich made a film about it. anyway, it was just nice to have some of one's own company for a while. then i went to english but only til 3pm, as i had to go to work, the bastards....
that fish is definately dead....
yeha so worked from 5pm til 8pm with this new girl on shoes. she is such a a pikey and only 16 years old. she thought i was 23! 23 i ask you, i do not look that old. stupid pikey. then she had the cheek to get me to ring through her first ever account and she took the credit for it. such a pikey. i fucking hate pikeys....
got home and did some work then watched Donnie Darko. love that film. and Freya wants to read my eljay before she goes to bed so i better stop now and go to bed myself as i love it there, jsut its hard to get there....need to be up at 7:15am too.
just re-read my eljay...so melancholy....you'd think i was dying or something....