It hurts SO BAD
So he broke up with me... again. And this time it is definitely worse than the first. I'm always depressed. I can't stop thinking about it. At night I stay up just crying. WHY AM I SO PATHETIC? I wish it could have worked out. I love him so much, but that doesn't matter because he has already moved on, which hurts even more than him breaking up with me. It kills me to know that there's another girl, specially since he hangs out with her everyday and talks to her on the phone all the time. He says they have really good conversations and they are able to talk about God a lot. I have absolutely nothing against her, I just wish I was her. I'm so jealous, and I hate it. I wish it didn't have to hurt so bad, but hopefully I'll get over it soon. I pray to God that there will be some way I can get over him and so the pain will stop. I hate thinking about it, specially all the times that we were so happy together. I wish he could have cared about me the way I cared about him. I put up with so much just to be with him because I loved him that much. Goodness gracious, I really needed to type all this out. I'm done.
P.S. I need prayers, lots.
P.S. I need prayers, lots.