A New Journey: Falling into place
There have been a few realizations that have led to some interesting changes over the past week or so. The lack of interest in gaming. The loss of interest in anime. The waning interest in video games. This weekend, I took down all my anime wallscrolls and put away my DVDs, but I left the manga in the bookshelf--it's technically literature in the graphic form. I put all my D&D crap in a box that now sits in the closet. I have never seen my room that bare since my sister and I stopped sharing a room over 10 years ago. As for the game consoles, those will stay out, but I won't be playing them very often.
I can't believe that I let my life focus that much on those three things. I wasn't exactly sure I would be able to do that, but physically putting everything into boxes made the process easier. I felt no remorse, no regret...just experienced a ton of fond memories along the way that I felt no attachment to.
I feel rather empty inside, but it's a good kind of empty. It'll give me a chance to explore other blooming interests--Astrology, writing (rekindled), women's studies, lgbt studies, possibly cooking--at my leisure. I feel like I can do anything I choose whenever I feel like it. I know I'll never let gaming and anime go forever...they're a part of my life I can acknowledege, but never have to return to them.
It's strange that once I let something go, the other pieces of the puzzle started to fall into place--slowly, but surely. Who knows where this will lead me ^_^
I'd by lying if I said I wasn't afraid, finding myself surrounded by doors that are slowly creaking open. But the future prospects are so exciting!
I can't believe that I let my life focus that much on those three things. I wasn't exactly sure I would be able to do that, but physically putting everything into boxes made the process easier. I felt no remorse, no regret...just experienced a ton of fond memories along the way that I felt no attachment to.
I feel rather empty inside, but it's a good kind of empty. It'll give me a chance to explore other blooming interests--Astrology, writing (rekindled), women's studies, lgbt studies, possibly cooking--at my leisure. I feel like I can do anything I choose whenever I feel like it. I know I'll never let gaming and anime go forever...they're a part of my life I can acknowledege, but never have to return to them.
It's strange that once I let something go, the other pieces of the puzzle started to fall into place--slowly, but surely. Who knows where this will lead me ^_^
I'd by lying if I said I wasn't afraid, finding myself surrounded by doors that are slowly creaking open. But the future prospects are so exciting!