Sources and turning..
Loves,
The sorrow came from Mel, who oh so nicely said that I was just one on a long list of girls that Mike had slept with and never spoken to.. Made me sad, in the heaviest sense of the word. So, when she and Megan were tlaking, I simply..hung up. I wanted to think clearly without the constant flow of alienating words. My cell phone began to ring, but I didn't answer- it didn't seem worth it anymore. I began to finish my homework, write my play.. Then about 30 mins later my cell rang again. "What the hell" I thought, and I answered. It wasn't Mel like I'd expected, but Natasha. I was..incredibly surprised, to say the least. We spoke for about 30 mins, and I found out some things. Suffice to say, I felt incredibly hopeful and giggly even as I went to sleep.
Of course, Mike ignored me most of today, when I was going to talk to him. -.-;; Bah. So, I handed him a quick note, which he may or may not have read. It was short. I didn't want to put all my thoughts on paper, after all. *sigh* Love is difficult. But yes, I also asked 'Tosh if I could use her as my model for a few pics over the summer. She agreed, which makes meh happy. XD I hope Mike still wants to. ;.; He's going to be my special project afterall.. ><;; I wanna talk to him! Rawr... And the lion is forced into the sheep's clothing once again. -o-
"If only it were possible to love without injury... The hurt is in the act of possession: we are too small in mind and body to posses anohter person without pride or to be possessed without humiliation."
-Graham Greene
Hope diving,
Lephise
The sorrow came from Mel, who oh so nicely said that I was just one on a long list of girls that Mike had slept with and never spoken to.. Made me sad, in the heaviest sense of the word. So, when she and Megan were tlaking, I simply..hung up. I wanted to think clearly without the constant flow of alienating words. My cell phone began to ring, but I didn't answer- it didn't seem worth it anymore. I began to finish my homework, write my play.. Then about 30 mins later my cell rang again. "What the hell" I thought, and I answered. It wasn't Mel like I'd expected, but Natasha. I was..incredibly surprised, to say the least. We spoke for about 30 mins, and I found out some things. Suffice to say, I felt incredibly hopeful and giggly even as I went to sleep.
Of course, Mike ignored me most of today, when I was going to talk to him. -.-;; Bah. So, I handed him a quick note, which he may or may not have read. It was short. I didn't want to put all my thoughts on paper, after all. *sigh* Love is difficult. But yes, I also asked 'Tosh if I could use her as my model for a few pics over the summer. She agreed, which makes meh happy. XD I hope Mike still wants to. ;.; He's going to be my special project afterall.. ><;; I wanna talk to him! Rawr... And the lion is forced into the sheep's clothing once again. -o-
"If only it were possible to love without injury... The hurt is in the act of possession: we are too small in mind and body to posses anohter person without pride or to be possessed without humiliation."
-Graham Greene
Hope diving,
Lephise