As You Know

[the_life_effect]

One of the best feelings, is finally knowing that you're better off without them; that life really does go on even when they're not around. You don't roll around restless on your bed. You don't feel the need to check their social networking sites every so often. You don't stare at your phone hoping that for some reason, they call--even if by accident. I've come to find out that the same gut wrenching feelings that overtake you when you fall for someone, are also the ones that return when you lose said person. I am not invulnerable; I am not an exception to any rule. I am actually just as fragile as the next person. I fucking hurt. And I thought that was not possible anymore.
Even more, Karma doesn't even begin to explain anything at all. In the end, the world really does operate as "an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth."

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I am not a good person. I hurt someone and therefore, got hurt back in the same degree, by the same person. I am paying for it everyday. With my loss of appetite, my lack of sleep, my inability to concentrate on anything else but them.

I am sorry. So, so sorry.