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Well, first off, my dad's "fiance" (whom is like a best friend) left. Her son said he was not happy and did not want to live here anymore because all his mommy and Dean do is fight. (by the way, Dean is my dad) Well my dad, if you know him, you know he was devistated. He really Loves Tracy! And me and my dad are so friggin close! That when he is sad it makes me sadder! I have been crying so much lately, and if you know me well you know i don't cry much unless something is REALLY wrong! And another thing if you read my other bulletin my trip so South Padre Island was CANCELED because of the friggin RAIN! Damn the rain damn it all to hell! I really need to get out of the house! And when i have the money like right now, nobody can go and I really just need someone to talk to! Thats all and if i am a bitch to you please son't take it personally! I am just so depressed!
Anyways on a better note, I went to eat with Ryan today. We talked a lot about nothing and everything all at once, then after I dropped him off at home this song came on and I was off in my lottle world driving down the road and the song caught my intrest while I listened to the words I realized that it was mine and Ryan's relationship, down to EVERY SINGLE WORD. I know If you have heard of Staind you know it. It's called Right Here... Here are the Lyrics...
I know I’ve been mistaken
But just give me a break
And see the changes that I’ve made
I’ve got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all
And throw them in my face
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I’d still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting
I hope you’re not intending
To be so condescending
It’s as much as I can take
And you’re so independent
You just refuse to bend
So I keep bending till I break
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I’d still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting
I’ve made a commitment
I’m willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Can’t you just forgive me
I don’t want to relive all the mistakes
I’ve made along the way
But I always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say
To keep you right here waiting
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
We always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If I chose to walk away
Would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep me right here waiting
Well Thats them. When I heard it the song made me want to cry. Tonight I realized how much I am in love with Ryan. He is my everything. I don''t know what I would do without him! I don't know if he realizes that! But it's true. He is my Beautiful future husband and father of my children!
Anyways on a better note, I went to eat with Ryan today. We talked a lot about nothing and everything all at once, then after I dropped him off at home this song came on and I was off in my lottle world driving down the road and the song caught my intrest while I listened to the words I realized that it was mine and Ryan's relationship, down to EVERY SINGLE WORD. I know If you have heard of Staind you know it. It's called Right Here... Here are the Lyrics...
I know I’ve been mistaken
But just give me a break
And see the changes that I’ve made
I’ve got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all
And throw them in my face
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I’d still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting
I hope you’re not intending
To be so condescending
It’s as much as I can take
And you’re so independent
You just refuse to bend
So I keep bending till I break
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If you chose to walk away
I’d still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep you right here waiting
I’ve made a commitment
I’m willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Can’t you just forgive me
I don’t want to relive all the mistakes
I’ve made along the way
But I always find a way
To keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say
To keep you right here waiting
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
We always find the words to say
To keep me right here waiting
If I chose to walk away
Would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say
To keep me right here waiting
Well Thats them. When I heard it the song made me want to cry. Tonight I realized how much I am in love with Ryan. He is my everything. I don''t know what I would do without him! I don't know if he realizes that! But it's true. He is my Beautiful future husband and father of my children!