and if only..

[the_last_polka]

and if only sluts would choke.
and if only you would close your legs.
and if only he realized how good life was before.
and if only my friends would understand that you little miss, have no morals.

i'm still praying i'm wrong.
and once i'm proven wrong... i'll be the happiest girl in the world.
even if it doesn't help me out with him.. it's better to know it's not that bitch.

and maybe i'm just insecure.
or crazy..

but even if i'm crazy, pathetic, yadda yadda yadda... i'm not as low as that girl.

does this all sound ridiculous?

i hope it does.
actually, i hope it sounds crazy because it's so far off base.
that'd be ideal.

i just don't put it past you.
isn't that sad?
don't you think people should have a higher opinion of you?
it's too bad... because you are nice.. but you need to learn how to stop fucking over people.

and maybe, just maybe i'm wrong.
and like i said.

i really hope i am wrong.
i really hope you have some more respect for your friends.

please god.