bitter.
i'm in such a slump right now.. and nothing, NOTHING is helping me.
getting drunk doesn't do it, getting high doesn't do it, sleeping doesn't do it, concentrating on school doesn't do it.
nothing does.
i'm caught in this horrible void of anger.
i'm distraught.
i feel like my heart is being ripped right down the middle.
and he's taking a piece with him..and i'm only left with half a heart.
and i love him and he loves me.
and we want to be together.
there's nothing hard about this.
but he's moving, and i'm here... and in his mind it just won't work right now.
but i'm going down there over my february break.
will things be like they were?
does distance make the heart grow fonder?
because i know my feelings won't change.
and he knows his won't either.
and in a sense, i know his won't either, but i don't know.
it's so hard.
in my mind it's so easy...
just don't move.
find a job up here.
prove people wrong up here.
i offered to not come back to school next year.
to finally grow up and get a job and work hard.
but he doesn't want me throwing away my dreams..
but still.
in my dreams, i'm with him.
and nothing will make me happy otherwise.
no one.
no one at all.
and i know we'll be together again.
but when?
how long?
i love him.
and i know i've fucked up before, but things are so different.
and he's my everything.. and it just hurts so bad.
i pretend to joke around with everyone.
and when i'm with him, i truely am happy and i do truely laugh and smile..
but then when i'm without him, all my thoughts come back into play and i get upset.
and cry and get mad.
and nothing helps it.
i just want us to be together.
i love him so much.
quite possibly too much.
but i don't believe that.
he's just perfect to me.
and yeah, i know we bitch at each other like crazy and get quite mean..
but who doesn't?
if you don't fight or get mad, you're not normal.
we're normal.
we're great.
we're in love.
and i want it to be forever.
fuck florida man.
oi.
getting drunk doesn't do it, getting high doesn't do it, sleeping doesn't do it, concentrating on school doesn't do it.
nothing does.
i'm caught in this horrible void of anger.
i'm distraught.
i feel like my heart is being ripped right down the middle.
and he's taking a piece with him..and i'm only left with half a heart.
and i love him and he loves me.
and we want to be together.
there's nothing hard about this.
but he's moving, and i'm here... and in his mind it just won't work right now.
but i'm going down there over my february break.
will things be like they were?
does distance make the heart grow fonder?
because i know my feelings won't change.
and he knows his won't either.
and in a sense, i know his won't either, but i don't know.
it's so hard.
in my mind it's so easy...
just don't move.
find a job up here.
prove people wrong up here.
i offered to not come back to school next year.
to finally grow up and get a job and work hard.
but he doesn't want me throwing away my dreams..
but still.
in my dreams, i'm with him.
and nothing will make me happy otherwise.
no one.
no one at all.
and i know we'll be together again.
but when?
how long?
i love him.
and i know i've fucked up before, but things are so different.
and he's my everything.. and it just hurts so bad.
i pretend to joke around with everyone.
and when i'm with him, i truely am happy and i do truely laugh and smile..
but then when i'm without him, all my thoughts come back into play and i get upset.
and cry and get mad.
and nothing helps it.
i just want us to be together.
i love him so much.
quite possibly too much.
but i don't believe that.
he's just perfect to me.
and yeah, i know we bitch at each other like crazy and get quite mean..
but who doesn't?
if you don't fight or get mad, you're not normal.
we're normal.
we're great.
we're in love.
and i want it to be forever.
fuck florida man.
oi.