Jun 22, 2011 00:45
Been a while since I last updated. Im sitting at my sister's apartment waititng to be sleepy enough to actually fall asleep.
So much has happened in the last couple of months!
John and Valerie have broken up and gotten back together numerous times. Its almost a joke how often she gives him the boot or vice versa and they invariably get back together. I dont see them staying together for the long run, but for now he will stay with her because it is easy. He doesnt have to change anything about himself or his behavior to be with her and he can still get his dick wet and he gets all the drama he wants or needs. He can "fix" her and teach her things. He has nothing to teach me, and I cannot be "fixed". My bi-polar isnt going to get better because of anything he does.
Things with Tristan are going well. :) I'm a little bummed that I wont see him as much this summer as I did last summer. He has many more gigs this year than he did last year. Good for his wallet, not so good for me. :( But I knew going into this that music would always come first. We joke that his "first Mistress, Music" will always come first. I say that I understand, but I don't have to like it. Lol This past weekend was the Kinky Prom at The Space. He had his kids recital on Saturday but he still showed up for me. He brought his marimba with him and set it up in the lounge and played for everyone. I was so proud of him. :) Everyone loved his music. He even taught Shiny Pantz how to play. I was a little jealous because when he first showed me the marimba I barely got to lay a finger on it without him hovering anxiously over me. We did have a bit of a crisis a little bit ago. For some reason I got it into my head to ask him if he was ever embarrassed of me. He gently tried to steer the conversation in another direction, but I wasn't having any of it. He said yes, he had been embarrassed of me when Jim asked about me after he met me at the jazz concert. That just about broke my heart. I cried all night and when he had to leave for a funeral the next day, I cried when he left. He is always honest, my little fox. I cannot fault him for telling me the truth. We mended it, or rather I got over it. it really struck home because of the things my Mother used to tell me. That because I was fat that no one would ever want me because they would be embarrassed to introduce me to their parents or their friends. I hate it when she's right. There's a double standard there too. Tristan's sister has a boyfriend. He doesn't like his sister's BF in part because they've been seeing each other for 2 years and he has not seen fit to introduce her to his family....Ive been with him for a year and a half and his parents don't even know I exsist.
We are going to another Civil War re-enactment in July....the battle of Bull Run down in Manassas, VA. Nolan is going and I get to meet Mike, AKA The Mad Russian. Ought to be interesting. The other Mike who has been nicknamed "Data" came up to The Space and I gave him a toy bag tour. That was fun. But he's so analytical! Hence the nickname.... I like Mike a lot though. Hes sweet and funny and kind.
We had a scare with Mom. She was (and still is) in the hospital. He oxygen saturations were in the 70's. They should be in the 90's. Ive spent most of the last week in the ICU. Shes coming home tomorrow and Im going to be staying with her for 3 days. I hope we dont kill each other. This is why Im staying at Dee's tonight. It didnt make sense for me to come all the way up here then back home then back here again. Im staying here til Saturday afternoon when I go to teach a class on negotiations to the TNG kids in Northampton. She has a beautiful apartment. Everything is blue and shiny and pretty. She also gave me some pretty jewelry. Aunt Pat will be coming up to stay with her for a week after I leave.
So to sum up, things have been okay between John and I...good between Tristan and I and scary with my Mom and stress. I wish I could sleep....